A lil bit of background information: I’m asexual and I have always identified with that. I feel like my asexuality has made it difficult for me to distinguish between platonic and romantic desires. Because of this it’s difficult for me to become touchy with people without wondering if they’re interested in me or if this is just how friends are with each other.
I met a guy at work (he’s a few years older than me – I’m 18…he’s 21). We talk every day. He usually starts the conversation – and we talk for literal hours – sometimes all day. I think I have feelings for him. We connect on a lot of things and that feels really great inside because I have a hard time connecting with people! It’s weird though..I go from being totally nervous around him (including trying to avoid him so I don’t pass out in front of him, glancing at him when he’s working at w/e, and still feeling jittery hours after he’s already clocked out) to feeling totally comfortable with him. It honestly feels like I’ve known him for a long freaking time even though we’ve been talking for almost two months (we had been working together for six months before he gave me his number). And whenever he’s around me I always check his body language: he does not seem to act like a total puppy in front of me like I do in front of him lmao.
But he talks to me often (a lot more than any friend has), makes me feel like I matter to him in subtle ways, hugs me, seems to always be smiling around me, one time he subtly complimented me (I think…?), when we hang out it seems like he doesn’t text anyone else but when he hangs out with other people he texts me (??), also he said he enjoys hanging out with me..and a few other things I cannot think of right now but we were at the beach laying on this huge blanket he brought and he rolled up into a little burrito and rolled close to me. I don’t know if he was trying to get close or if he was just..being a burrito. But i felt like we were very comfortable with each other and didn’t mind the silence. I don’t know what this means! Lol, I’m very confused. I know he’s shy…and hey, so am I. I seriously don’t understand some people’s approaches to friendships/relationships so maybe he’s just being a really nice friend. I’ve never had friends that have acted like this towards me!
What do you think? Am I feeling Feelings for someone who only thinks of me as a friend? 
