I’ve lost it somewhere!

I feel a hollow inside of me, I really find it difficult to stay away from my family as I have literally no friends, all the women that I ever dated ditched me, and everybody’s moved on like ages and I’m still stuck with my old memories and I frequently travel back in time because being a kid was better off, I’ve developed phobias , I fear staying alone,while all the people I know are doing great in their lives, I’m travelling backwards and my condition is deteriorating, I feel lost and depressed at times and wake up to weird dreams, strange thoughts and a feeling of fear. I don’t have any friends who I can be with or hang out with, I don’t have a social life at all, I read book s and watch movies, I work and considering that I’m not a teen and pretty grown up now, I feel weird having to feel this way and i get extremely lonely at times when I’m left alone.In this fear, I cannot move cities or go live my life,I’ve turned into something I never imagined before.I try to contact my old friends, but all are busy. I know life is passing by and I’m turning old. I Am I going crazy?

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The Runaway Kid

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I am in a similar situation. How I got here is a long story, but to be honest my current situation came out of a situation that I couldn't help or have much control over. I put in the "to be honest part" more so as a reminder to be honest with myself about my circumstance.
I have a couple of old friends that I talk to a couple times of year, but I don't have any friends to call or hang out with on the average day. There was a time if it weren't for my mom, I could literally go days without talking to anyone! So if it helps any, I know how you're feeling fist hand, and you're not going crazy after all!! I usually spend most of my free time watching tv and movies myself. But guess what, one day I decided to go to the movies (by myself) and it wasn't bad. I enjoyed the movie and even though that's not really a place where there's a lot of conversation, it made decide to try something else out on my own. So I went to church one day.
I know it's probably going to be difficult, but maybe you could start out by doing something by yourself. Take a hobby class, or go to the movies? If you do, feel free to update me on how it goes. Or if you just want to chat about books or movies we can do that too.

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