I use to be really confident and feel on top. But once I hit puberty my self esteem has plummeted. I feel like no one wants me and isn’t even willing to give me a chance. Everyone in my whole entire life that I’ve liked hasn’t liked me back. I don’t think I’m the ugliest girl ever. I know I’m not perfect but it feels like theres no one out there who’s even willing to get past my flaws. I always get comments like ‘oh you’re body is so nice though’ and what people don’t understand is like yes I have a nice body but why can’t anyone like my personality or facial features. I want people to call me beautiful instead of sexy.
I find myself always rejecting peoples compliments because I feel like they’re always just lying because they see how insecure I am and want to ‘make me feel better’.
A boy I liked a few years back actually told me recently that he liked me. he also said he didn’t want to date me but would’ve hooked up with me. Those are the type of things I don’t like hearing. It makes me feel disposable and like I’m not worthy. I feel like I’m always that girl that a guy would fuck but wouldn’t date and thats just not a good feeling.