Lately, it seems that I’ve been having more flashbacks to certain times when my father would abuse me. More so, to the times when he would strangle me.
A friend of mine has reported that — when this occurs — I suddenly get very quiet, and I start staring off in to space with what seems to be a dead or dull expression. My hands either were previously resting on my neck or move to it, but don’t squeeze down until a bit later. We’re not sure what the trigger for the squeezing response is.
However, if someone tries to touch my hands or anywhere near my arms or neck, it seems that I’ll scream and try to scramble away from them while still holding a firm grip on my throat.
My friend tells me that I will calm down after a certain amount of time, and that I can be shaken out of it, but I worry about this sort of thing happening in a public place.