Two weeks ago, I found out that my boyfriend had cheated on me. I wanted to talk to him about it, but he dumped me before then because I was holding off until the other girl could be with us and wouldn’t tell him what’s wrong. But after he dumped me, I told him what I’d learned, and he kept insisting that he didn’t cheat on me. It wasn’t until after I said goodbye and blocked him that she could finally get me any solid evidence. (To clarify, this was a long-distance relationship…) Looking back at it, it’s just a huge shock to me… It’s so hard for me to believe that everything was a lie. I felt like we’d been through so much together. I’m just so confused why he stayed for so long… I felt like I made him jump through a lot of hoops for me. I wanted to break up with him several times, but he’d always make me stay. And there were times when I “friendzoned” him when he wanted to be my boyfriend. I felt like I made things tough for him, so I find it hard to believe that he never really loved me, but one sad truth I know about him is that he’s a great actor. This isn’t the first time he’s lied to me and done it well. I would never get back together with him, seeing how broken we are. But some part of me just wants to ask him how much of us was real… and just to hear him own up to what he’s done, seeing that he doesn’t really have anything to lose at this point. I don’t even expect an apology, just the truth, coming straight from his mouth. I don’t know when or if he ever stopped cheating on me. Two girls have made their claims though. One of them had evidence. From the screenshots from her phone, I found his kik, but I don’t know if he would be willing to talk to me. (Before we broke up, he told me how he was getting a new phone, and seems like he’d done just that after we broke up, so his old phone number doesn’t work anymore.) About a week after we broke up, he changed his kik name to “She’s kinda hot though.” Seems silly at first for me to worry about that, because I know that it’s part of a song, but I feel like this might be a huge sign that he’s already found someone else, and that if I were to try to contact him now, I’d just be the psycho ex to him. The fact that he’s also made many misogynistic comments doesn’t help. It’s just that I can’t seem to get my mind off of this.