So I’ve had this boyfriend for literally three days.. and we had sex last night. Sounds.. like a lot to take it.. I was a virgin before him but it just felt right and I don’t feel bad that we had sex, it’s just.. now I’m scared because I gave away all the power I had. He’s really precious and he’s said that he feels like I’m the one he’s been waiting for but I’ve been cheated on so many times before and it’s just hard to trust people.. no matter how badly I want to. I really, really like him. It just feels right with him, and he’s said the same.. I’m just worried that I fucked it up. Like he’ll get bored of me or something.. I always assume people get bored of me eventually, but.. I don’t know.. I know I’m going to ruin it some way. I don’t know how to be confident anymore. I don’t know how to believe in someone anymore.. He’s only had two girlfriends before me and they both cheated on him and he says he never wants to be that.. He’s at work now so he can’t respond all the time, and of course my mind wanders to “OMG he’s bored of me!” “He hates me now!” “He’s going to break up with me!” I don’t WANT THESE THOUGHTS.. this should be the happiest time ever, WHY AM I THINKING THIS?
