Me and my friends had a big fight few weeks ago, and now we’re okay. We stay in a small group which includes 5 people (includes me too) but the thing is, I don’t feel so much fun, it’s depressing somehow, I feel like they don’t want me anymore. My bestest friend in the group doesn’t feel like my best friend anymore, they say that I don’t care about friends and I’m online too much and I’m addicted to my phone (something like that) but because I’m different from them, I selfharm, I get depress so easily and I try to ignore what people are saying bout me, I tried not to care and ended up not caring about anything, I don’t try to fix problems because I am scared I will mess up. I don’t want to go to school anymore, I always have to put up getting hurt and ignored. I tried explaining my feelings to them but they don’t understand me, even if I tell them the truth, I will always be wrong and it’s always my fault for not trying. I tried so hard to be good for other people, sometimes I want them to come to me. I’m the kind of person who breaks down most of the time, sometimes I want to suicide because I’m no good for anyone and I always mess up and without me, it would be more peaceful and I don’t have to feel anything. Yet, they don’t know I selfharm, because if they do, they would hate me. Everyone probably thinks I’m crazy, but no one understand what I’m going through