Even the smallest things make me retreat these days. I suffer from depression, and in my opinion, a slight case of paranoia. Any time anyone tries to get close to me, I feel like there’s this thin little wire, and if they get close enough, they trip the wire, and I automatically send them packing. I want to make new friends, and maybe eventually find someone to love, but when every little thing makes me suspicious, how can I trust anyone to not just use me, abuse me, and toss me aside, like everyone else has? I’m tired of being the bad guy for sticking up for myself, because I have dreams, hopes, and desires, too, you know…?
