I’m having vivid out-of-body experiences about death. What should I do?

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I was in the shower thinking about what I should do with my life. It was mainly about how I’m going to live my life without a job and a home because my parents are kicking me out Sept. 9th when I had this vivid experience. My mind flashed instantly into (what I like to call) my ‘depressive/suicidal mode’ and I saw myself take my own life in a gory train suicidal ‘accident.’ I still can’t shake the thought out of my mind and I’m terrified that I’ll snap into a trance and ‘get it over with.’ I’ve been chronically depressed like this for years and I’ve already noticed with my actions I’ve already given up in life. I’m no longer eating properly, I stay up all night and sleep during the day, I haven’t looked for work in months. I know someone is going to say something along the lines of ‘Get out there and just do it.’ but with my severe condition I just have hopelessly given up.

Category: Tags: asked August 14, 2015

2 Answers

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I've never had such an experience before, thus my understanding of how you're feeling is very limited. But I hope I can reach out to you. I believe you had that vivid daydream due to your subconscious self considering suicide as an option then creating a simulation of it. By the sound of it, it's terrifying. From what you've said, it seems what triggered that was your worries on how you'll live without a job and home. And it appears you connected that with death. This may sound impossible to do, but I want you to trust yourself. Trust yourself that you can find a way to survive when the day comes.
Remind yourself that you don't know what will happen. You could find a job that gives you a steady income, or not. Someone you knew could find you then help you. Just, something you never expected may happen. But until the time arrives, you should try not to convince yourself it's the end. Simply because you don't know.
Eat well, sleep well and try not to make most of your "what-if" thoughts on the future, negative ones. Now more importantly, do you have someone to talk to about your condition? As in someone in real life who'll listen and try to understand you. It could be a friend or your parents perhaps. If not, I'd be more than willing to listen to your troubles, in full detail.
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You are not having out of body experiences. What you experienced was suicidal ideation, and you need to see your primary care physician and get a reference to a psychiatrist. Do not delay when combatting suicidal ideation. Your life is literally on the line, and your life matters.