Reason is this. I have been dating this guy, who I moved away from friends and family for, for almost 9 months now. He said I could move in with him because otherwise we would be long distance dating. It was too soon at first then we broke up twice and I moved back in with him. I know sounds crazy already, lol. Things started getting really great and our relationship was growing into something beautiful. We have this string emotional connection that is awesome. We really love each other very much. Here goes. When we fight which is more than I’d like, he goes into this horrible tirade of insults, put downs, and cruelty. It is horrible. I bawl my eyes out every time it happens of course. He said from when it first happened that he doesn’t mean any of it and he is always sorry that he hurt me. Honestly now that it happens with every fight that doesn’t make me feel any better. I know no matter what I say, I admit I’m no angel. I have done things that understandably made him mad, but at other times I was just telling him how I feel about something or letting him know I need more affection, kissing, cuddling from him. I don’t believe anyone deserves that kind of treatment period. I put up with it although I’ve told him that it has to stop. It doesn’t. Also have asked if he would be willing to go to therapy together or for hihimself and he refuses there is anything wrong. Now he went to his sisters house for the holiday last night, but didn’t invite me. He told me months ago that he wasn’t going to. So I knew, but still was and am upset about this. He says it’s because he isn’t close with them and is embarrassed of his mom aND sister. I don’t really understand why if he loves me like he says he does why he wouldn’t want to share with them his girlfriend and his happiness. I introduced him to my parents on thanksgiving weekend but he refused to go to my brother’s house for thanksgiving dinner which we were invited to and for Christmas dinner at my brother’s too. I asked him if he would go and he said I don’t want to. I’m gonna just go day after Christmas by myself to see my brother and his family. I’m not happy about this. He also denied my Facebook friends request few months,ago. I was upset and felt slighted by this. He said I don’t go on there at all really and heven wants to avoid drama. I felt like what is he hiding honestly. Friends of mine agreed with me mostly. I still feel kinda hurt by it like he doesn’t want to share me and our relationship with fb friends or his family. To me it doesn’t show love. He has told me he’s a very private person. And nerds and shy which I don’t mind. Should I be worried or think there is seriously something wrong? ? ? The really weird thing is he will yell and be like what is wrong with you. Several times he says this is, a super crazy, unstable , frustrated voice. It’s very odd for him to be like I’m the one that has,the problem. What in the wored right?!? I wonder if he’s narcissistic or bipolar or personality disorder maybe? I’m bipolar and I don’t act this way. I can control my anger. Although I admit I too raise my voice but only after he is awful to me. This is crazy.