I really wanna just die, ive never felt so ALONE! do any ladies wanna help a man broken?

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I need a friend….a real friend…..im so scared im gonna get end up alone for good, and i have so much love and affection to give. Im not a bitch and am actually a convicted felon with a bad past of mistakes and ill advised choices. Im damaged physically and have nothing to show for my life so far, other than my honesty, my writing, my poems, my opinions and my devotion to help others. Im not gonna waste anyones times telling my sad tragic latent story of heartbreak and love lost, but Im at the end of my rope and already tried killing myhself once this holiday season but chickened out for the sake of my poor mother. I have little faith but still wanna believe that maybe I can meet someone here who will willing to hear my story, feelings and desires about life. I have no use for any guys, cause I have guy friends and Im the only androgynous male I know. I need a girls friendship and closeness, maybe someone who can relate or empathize with what Im going through. Im so sick of pretending to be happy and content only to appease the same motherfuckers who could care less about what I or anyone else goes through. Chivalry is dead and its a sad fact, not to mention compassion, common courtesy, and the ability to wanna help others. Altruism is something that has always come naturally to me and it keeps my faith in humanity alive but its incredibly hard to continue doing what Im doing, knowing that the best years are behind me and I may never get a chance to love agian or at least share my love with an angel who would care about me the same way. Im begging anygirl who needs a friend or is looking for a guy who actually would wanna be that knight in shinning armor to contact me and save me from the thoughts that torment me every night and provide a bridge to the nightmares of life that i call my own……James

Tags: asked December 27, 2013

5 Answers

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I'm here to talk if you need me! you should never feel alone. the world is full of amazing beautiful souls who are up for a new friend c:
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Try and focus on building yourself up through your writings. Try and publish some anonymously to a local art magazine or in a coffee shop. Take up a new hobby that is time consuming and allows you to use your hands and build. Constructive efforts will keep your mind focused and occupied, thus you won't think solely about your past. I am only a senior in high school, but I too have pondered living out the rest of my life in solitude and have also pondered suicide. I see that it's a miracle that we're even alive and functioning, so why not tough it out and try and get the most out of life, even if that means not involving others at the moment. Inbox me if you have any other questions. Good luck!(:
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I'll be here to talk if you'd like. Feel free to message me. I know sometimes things are tough and I know that feeling that you get when you just really need someone to talk to.
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I am always happy to talk - and there is always a solution better than death. Seriously, message me anytime!
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I'm here for you, you are not alone, stay strong, you are a beautiful, amazing person. If you need to talk, I'm here (hugs)