I keep having thoughts about how short life is..

I had doubts like you at one point. I became a militant atheist actually (which, let me clarify, atheism is not a bad thing), but eventually my views changed and now I'm a mess of all sorts of spiritual things. At first I didn't want to even consider spirituality because of the same "what if" questions, like what if I was just saying this to myself to feel better, or what if none of it was actually true. And then at a point I stopped caring about those questions, because life is short and I can believe what I want to as long as it makes me happy. So yeah, the point of this is to do and believe in what makes you happy, even if it's made as a comfort. As long as it's not hurting anyone or yourself, there's nothing wrong with it.

You will spend your whole life looking for some form of spirituality that suits you. Keep in mind that your grandfather will never leave you as long as you will remember him. He had a long life and probably some days he suffered but some he was really happy and those days were worth everything. So yeah, live in the moment, but think of the future too, good luck in your path towards being less shy. :)

Everyone has their own belief as to what they think will happen to a person when they die. Perhaps it's wishful thinking but regardless the only way to answer that question is to ask yourself. I don't necessarily consider myself to be a spiritual but I still believe in some sort of afterlife. You don't necessarily have to believe in god to believe in an afterlife. I like to look at religions as a means to answering these fundamental questions, such as where did we come from, why do we exist, what happens when we die etc. etc. But you can always adopt your own answers to these questions and so I kind of picked and choose from different perspectives and adopted my own set of beliefs that way. Anyway, even if nothing happened when we die, think of the last time you had a dreamless sleep, it wasn't so bad was it? Socrates once said that, "Death may even be the greatest of all good things, but yet we treat it as if we know for certain it is the greatest of all bad" And there's nothing wrong with being shy! I would describe myself as being an introverted person, I like my solitude but I'm a creative mind so sometimes I need that. Don't think that being shy is a bad thing, embrace your introversion! --> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c0KYU2j0TM4 this video is about introverts and how great and amazing they are.

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