I don’t want to end up back where I started.

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I’m talking to this boy, and I have been for a good 4 months. he always compliments me, says he loves me, listens to me, cares. and the best thing is that he isn’t turned away from my dark side. he doesn’t know that I cut but he knows of my attempted suicide. when I told him about this, he cried. he always tells me that side of me is never going to turn him away and he’ll always love me. I’m so scared of getting hurt. he keeps hinting he’s going to ask me out but I’m just terrified. I like him too, a lot. The way mind mind runs, I can’t help but see anything but negatives coming out of this. I’m slowly coming out of the darkness but I’m just scared that I’m going to end up right back where I started. I don’t know what to do. that’s the one thing holding me back.

Category: Tags: asked January 8, 2014

3 Answers

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Let me first say this: A relationship will not solve your depression. It is not only impossible, it's unfair to expect that of a partner. If you are not already getting professional help for the depression, I would really like to encourage you to do so.

Otherwise, why not ask him out yourself? It might help you both to hear him say he wants to go out with you. I'm seeing a lot of insecurity and fear of abandonment in your question and that's not usually a thing that partners can help.

I'm glad you found someone you like who likes you, enjoy that, but it's easy to hope that having a partner will fix your problems and that's an unfair expectation to place on a person.

Basically, enjoy the relationship for what it is, because it's awesome all on it's own.
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Yolo, this guys seems to be the opposite of that dark side, the way you talk about him sounds like he will bring lots of light into your life :)
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you need to think of yourself and your health before anything else at this point and i woul suggest profession help because of the attempted suicide and cutting, i've been there before and trust me, professional help can do a world of wonders sometimes. i dont think it is wrong to have feeling for this boy, i just want to make sure that you know that you are a valuable person that does not need to hurt inside or outside,please take care