I dissociate really badly

Alright so im going to skip a whole lot of stuff and leave out diagnoses because that just gets to complicated and i dont want to bore you all, i have PTSD from childhood sexual abuse but it is suspected that i cant get passed this because of the blocks that i have developed one of which is dissociation. Now this is something that i have developed for a good 8/9 years now but now that im in therapy im trying to get help with sorting out this assault so i can live life without flashbacks and other horrible experiences but i cannot sit thorugh a therapy session because as soon as she brings up anything closely related to it i dissociate and this can take days to come out of. I dissociate so badly that i have been pulled out of my final exams for year 12 because i would dissociate in them and not be able to complete anything.
The usual treatment for dissociation is things like grounding techniques, i have treied many of these and none of them work, pet therapy, i think it may have worked for a little bit but not long enough, other techniques wont work either. Do you have any ideas for what i can do, my life is being taken over by my dissociation and it is starting to tear whats left of my family apart

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YinandYang

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I'm so sorry to hear about what you're going through. It's great that you tried therapy, and you should keep trying. Therapy takes time, it can take a lot of time, more than we expect sometimes. It's hard, it really sucks, but once you eventually make it over this hurdle, things will get better. The key is to keep trying. Inevitably there are going to be things that don't work, there are going to be setbacks, that's a part of the process. You managed to type out how you feel now in this question, maybe you could write a letter to your therapist describing how you feel and what's going on. That way she can know exactly what's going on your head and try to help you in different ways. You just need to keep trying and you're doing really great so far. Just putting in the effort is a mountain of work and you should feel good about it. I hope this helps. Good luck.

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Jess

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I'm sorry to hear that you're going through something so awful. I can relate as i have dealt with this issue before also due to PTSD. I grew up in a Bosnian war and witnessed a lot of horrible things which created a lot of fear, disassociation, anger and a lot of other feelings. I have gone through a lot of therapy and quite honestly I did not get the result I wanted. I have found other ways to treat my conditions I can honestly say that I live a very happy and fulfilled life without any issues that arise from my past. Due to the therapist insisting on heavy medication I have opted for an alternative route. Feel free to PM me if you'd like to talk in more detail. good luck to you with everything and I promise there is help at the end of the tunnel.

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Mark B

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