Everything is going somewhat alright with me and my boyfriend. I just can’t help but feel like our “love” is routine. My parents and family don’t support me in this relationship AT ALL, and I have to sneak around behind my parents’ backs in order to see him without getting in trouble. My friends think he’s okay, but I can tell they are just trying to be nice about the whole thing. I have been questioning my feelings for him. It just lacks the…passion, love, etc. I just don’t feel it as strongly as I used to. But whenever I think about breaking up with him, my heart burns and I want to scream and cry.
I know that I don’t love him, but he hasn’t done anything wrong or anything to upset me. He doesn’t deserve it, and it would break my heart to hurt him. I honestly have no idea what to do, it’s like I love him, I’m not IN love with him, and I don’t want to be without him all at the same time?! I was thinking about taking a break from the whole thing, just to see how well I am without him, but I can’t bring myself to actually break up. What should I do?