I’ve been trying to stop cutting, but at this point I’ve become desperate and I’m fairly sure I won’t be able to keep from it any longer. Physically speaking, I know how to hide cuts (clothing that covers the skin, makeup to hide the scars, etc) but how do I…emotionally hide it, I suppose? My boyfriend and my closest friends all know that I cut. How do I keep from giving off any hints that I’ve started cutting again?
The only way you can hide this is if you put it out of your mind completely and if you have an extraordinary poker face - but honestly, I think it's a bad, bad idea. Hiding something usually does more damage to a person than the thing they're trying to keep secret. Besides, you shouldn't have to hide your pain. It's not something to be ashamed of. It's something sad, something that's happening to you, but it's not something to hide. It would be good to have an open line of communication with the ones you trust about what you are going through. In the meantime, friend, I would really like it if you tried some other methods besides cutting. Try getting a rubber band and flicking it against you wrist, or drawing on your skin with red pen. I really want you to be okay, so please do your best!