Hi Lana,
In my opinion, the biggest mistake people make is trying to forget someone entirely. It isn’t possible. It would be so nice if we could just press rewind to the day we met certain people sometimes, but you meet everyone for a reason, as cliche as that sounds. Whomever you’ve lost, however they have touched your life, is a big part of who you are today, even though it is over now. It’s hard. It might be one of the hardest things in the world, emotionally. It’s a lot like a grieving process only sometimes, you still have to face this person. And that’s hard, there is no denying that.
But ignoring how this separation and this person make you feel is denying a large part of you. Ignoring our emotions feeds them. It’s like when you tell a little kid not to touch a stove because it’s hot: they’re going to touch it now that it’s forbidden to them. You tell your mind not to think about this person, and suddenly you’re whole body is overflowing with memories of them. Though it’s easier said than done, it’s healthier to acknowledge and accept your emotions--as hard and frustrating as they are--as they come, because they will always resurface, maybe stronger than they once were.
Every break up, or separation, comes with its own grieving process. We call them peaks and valleys. At times, you’ll feel really good. You might even forget why you were so upset in the first place--for a minute. This happens a lot when people first wake up in the morning. And the valley happens when it all comes rushing back to you, and you feel lower than you did yesterday. The good news is those valleys will start filling in. Soon, they’ll be flat lands. The valleys will become plateaus and it will stop hurting so much; you just have to give it time.
You are young. You will go through a lot of break ups, and at least half--if not all--will feel like the end of the world. But the good news is that you always find someone else, and the old boyfriends/girlfriends become, very literally, things of the past! Stay strong. Hold on. Don’t deny what you’re feeling, just wait it out, try to accept it, and soon, it won’t feel so badly.
Elizabeth