I feel like it’s a struggle to be happy, and I have to fight for it.
A month and a half ago, I returned from seeing my Long Distance Girlfriend in Australia. There I felt incredibly happy, and inspired to start some hobbies and practice things I want to be talented in. I also had the support from my girl and her family to be who I am.
But since coming back, I’ve felt so stifled at home, and that there’s no room for me to grow. It feels my family doesn’t want to help either.
I have a part time job, earning minimum wage, and all that has to go towards paying off my school’s tuition. I can’t even work in the profession I studied for because I don’t have money for my license or insurance. I can’t afford superficial things to help me cope with being home, and I definitely can’t afford to save up to move to Australia, where I feel my absolute home is. I’m miserable if I do the responsible thing, and to be happy, I have to avoid responsibility.
Where do I go from here and How can I both be responsible and happy at the same time?