I’m very lonely. I’ve been lonely for a very long time, despite the fact that I do have friends. For some very strange reasons, I feel like I literally can’t live without being in a relationship. All I want is to find someone who I can love unconditionally and spend my life with, but I’m so hopeless. Every girl I have ever tried to express my feelings with have rejected me and had ended up with someone else. One of which happens to be my best friend now, but I’ve harbored feelings for her ever since and I have to watch her be happy in the arms of another man.
I feel like a total failure. I feel so empty, that I’ve often considered killing myself. I feel it’s a very stupid reason to be suicidal, but It is just so inexplicably important to me to find someone. I feel trapped in my life. What can I do to stop this?