I was engaged to a girl that I met while volunteering at a therapeutic horseback riding center. We were together a year though I had known her much longer and one week shy of our one year anniversary I caught her cheating. It was the most horrible, humiliating, and disgusting feeling I have ever experienced. She tried to get back with me a few times but it never worked out because the trust, the innocence, just wasn't there anymore. Getting over her and moving on has been a challenge that I have endured for some time and the truth is that time is the only thing that can heal a broken heart. You may never be relieved of the scar of that betrayal and part of you may always love him but it's not going to kill you though there are times when it feels like it might. My ex means the world to me, in spite of the hell she put me through I can't hate her but I know that there could never be a time we were as strong as we were before that betrayal. You have to ask yourself if it's something you can live with and what you want from your life outside of the relationship because an outside focus is what's going to save you from depression, anxiety, and hopelessness when it comes to a loss. You have to find that fight and struggle on. And you can do it! It sucks and it's uncomfortable and life will beat you senseless but you're still alive and you can still make use of the time you're given. Trust me. It can't rain all the time.