So today at school I could tell that I was going to have a panic attack and so I went to the nearest bathroom. It was the closest room and since class was about to start, I knew no one was going to be in there. I guess I should’ve gone to the nurse or something but just thinking about being near someone just made me even more anxious. I thought that maybe I’d just try to ride it out, my panic attacks are pretty mild. But I could feel myself getting more and more anxious and I couldn’t calm down.
So as I was sort of freaking out, this girl who happened to be in my class that was going on then walked in the bathroom. I asked her to tell the teacher where I was and that I just needed a moment because at the time, I still thought that maybe I could just ride it out. But it got worse. I just got so nervous and sweaty and no matter how much I tried, I just couldn’t get enough air. I don’t really remember what happened for the next twenty minutes but I got calm enough to text my mom to come get me because I just knew there was no way I was going to calm down any time soon. But it took me a while to text her because my hands were shaky.
So I went to the office to wait for my mom to pick me up. And apparently they were looking for me and didn’t know where I was, which makes no sense because that girl should’ve told my teacher but yeah, it caused this huge scene because if someone doesn’t show up for class and the teacher knew that they were there earlier, everyone talks about it and the staff immediately assumes the worst.
So what should I do to help me calm down? I mean, I haven’t had one in a while but this is the worst one I’ve had. And I know people are going to ask me about it so what should I say? I don’t really want to talk about it but people are going to ask questions.
Oh by the way, I don’t really know what caused it, I just started feeling anxious.
