Hello my names reylene im 21 years old i have a three year old daughter and a aboyfriend/ babys father we have been together for 7 years on and off for the first four years and somewhat stable for the last three years after the baby was born .we always start fighting over the things that we have done when we break up and end up breaking up again for a couple weeks but then we cant be apart for long cause we are like obsessed with each other and feel like we cant live without each other i say obsessed cause if u love someone u wouldnt be breaking up like that or talking or seeing other people when ever u were to brake up its exhausting for me and it seems like were never gonna be abel to forgive and forget toward each other and im usually very truthful about the things i do when we arent together and it seems that i can never get that in return theres two particular things that just drive me up the way the whole seven years thats we have been for the most part together ive always wanted to go out to six flags or disneyland but forsure ive always asked him if we can go to six flags and he always claimed he hates rides and doesnt want to go cause he doesnt like that stuff and hes scared cause of a bad experiance he had on a ride one time so we have never gone well hes was being very mean to me for a good couple weeks telling me mean things about how he is gonna leave with our friends if i cant find a baby sitter and he doesnt care if i cry or get mad and by the way i live under his dads roof so he always tells me if i dont like it i can leave and stuff like that its very hurt full and theres just so much more annoying yea not that big of a deal but they still bother me as a person so i desided to leave again like always and i always want to go out when we can have our parents watch the baby or etc and he never wants to and when i left him for treating me badly this past time he went out to ***** clubs for the first time to bars he went to our friends wedding without me and just because i met them cause of him he always tells me to stay away from them cause there his friends and only mine cause of him so he kinda tells me i better not show up to there wedding and i always dont want to conpletely loose him which is sick i shouldnt have to live like that but cant help how i feel so i didnt show up and i was just sad hurt and upset all night then he went to are friends sons birthday party and i asked him to take our daughter and he was telling me he was drunk and couldnt watch her but once again told me that i better not show up there so i dont when im not with him i get a burning in my chest when i think about what hes doing cause i have read his conversations on facebook three time when i hack into his profile i know its crazy but id rather be crazy then to never know what hes up to and i dont make a facebook cause he will flip out and like i said i always listen cause im scared to loose him anyways i read his messages with usually like a10 to 15 girls he knows that i dont know and this has happend three times already in the past three yeats he has all these conversations with these girls and he talks to them so nice and cheesy cause of course hes trying to hangout with then and im not stupid hes trying to hangout to have sex with them im sure and every time ive gone threw the messages therss at least four five girls i do not like who actually dont like me either and he breaks my heart cause hes sweet talking them and makeing me look dumb cause they get to laugh in my face when i see them and its childish right for me to feel and think that but its has been driving me crazy inside and wont go away i just get so sad thinking about how nice he is to them and how he talks like a diffrent person and it makes me feel like i dont even know that person but i love him and he does live me i know he does when we are together i havr never caught him doing any of that to me and hs says i dont know what ur doing whe ur not with me and i dont know if ur talking to guys buy why am i gonna just sit here and not do it if ur probably and also during the past break up i had stay over and it was looking as if i was coming home like usual and he wakes ul tells me hes gonna go apply for a job i find out a couple hour later hes on his way to six flags that felt worst then him cheating why is that?why did that hurt so bad i couldnt belive it ive ask him so many times to go and he didnt want to go and i find out by a friend he went with with our friends and he didnt bother to include me and then to top it of he was doing a good job acting like they were lying and was telling me he didnt go and he would repeat it and i would look in his eyes and they looked like he was telling the truth and i already went threw the hurt the day i heard so i was honeslty not gonna be upset i just wanted him to admit it and he was saying he swsars he didnt go he promised etc so i ended up beliving him and my chest felt realieve and happy he didny go and a week or two later im cleaning and a paper fell out of his pants i opened it and it was a printed out ticket for six flags with his first and last name on it proof in my face he was lying the hurt was so bad i wish he would have slept with someone else or something why did i feel that way over this am i over reacting if i am im not trying to i cant help how i feel and after all the fun he was haveing and all the partys and talking to girls i dont like and some after going to six flags after ive always wanted us to go he also ended up ripping my close like all of my cloths because i didnt want to come home and i didnt want to be with him i was too hurt and after seven years i think thats enough cause thats not half of the things hes done to me why does he talk to thos girls and asked them about there life and there jobs and stuff and then to top it off he can literally talk **** to one of them saying i juat talk to u cause i waned to hurt reylene and he will tell me he doesnt care about them the way he cares about me that he loves me that hes sorry and he will cry and then we go back to normal and were happy no fighting hes treating me good im treating him good our daughter by the way doesnt see or hear any of this so shes always happy but at the end of yhe day all these things run threw my head and i cant be fully happy but i love him i just cany be without him and he crys and says the same what should i do to get what hes done to me and how can he get lil things ive done to him out of our head how can we ever let go and stop dwelling on the past im just a messed and went on about so much at one time im sorry its just what came out of my feelings I’ve been keeping in 
