How can I get out of this rut?

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Out of nowhere my depression came and hit me like a mack truck and I have no idea why it’s even here. I was happy earlier in the day without a care in the world. Then all of a sudden, I look at myself in the mirror after washing my face and this sudden feeling of not wanting to be here hits me. I look around at things that usually make me happy and all i want to do is just stop being a thing. Just, stop existing for a while… I don’t understand why I feel so low for no reason. I usually have triggers but not this time… I just want to get back to being “normal”. Does anyone have any tips/tricks/ideas on how I can pull myself back up again? Because I’m having a hard time wanting to…

Category: asked November 19, 2014

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First step, know that this is normal. It happens to me all of the time. I've been so happy since recovering from depression but I suddenly have these days where I feel depressed again for no reason. But know this, these attacks of sadness are normal and short. Second step, follow my tip the best you can: take some you time. Don't hang out with that guy that you hate but only talk to because you feel bad that he's alone, don't drink that tea that you hate just because you're on a diet. You need to take some time to comfort yourself until you get out. Hang out with people that make you laugh, read your favorite poems over and over, buy some cheap Pillsbury turnovers and make them in the oven, write a page of all of the achievements you've made, write some memories of one of the best trips you've been on. Reflect on the good stuff, comfort the hurt parts. Excising is like that, you tear up your muscles and it hurts for a few days, but when they grow back they are much stronger than they were before.
Accept these days like a torn muscle, although the pain is almost unbearable, know that when you are feeling this pain you are also welcoming healing in to make you a better person. Improvement is not a line shooting straight up to the top of the graph bar. Improvement is a bumpy road with dips and hills that slowly make it up to the top. Accept that these days will happen, but that they only bring healing and in the end, improvement. These days will come, so let them come geared up with a can of frosting and positive attitude. Don't be tough on yourself. Don't get mad because you feel like you've lost all of your improvement by having these days. You, torn muscle, are on your way to becoming a stronger and more experienced person.
You can do this. I believe in you.
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I know how you feel. Even though you think it's the end of the world, you have so much ahead of you, and even if you feel like no one cares or is there for you, there will always be someone, even if you don't know it yet. Nothing is impossible, I know that you can do it. You are needed in this world and you need to know that. :)