I don’t trust anyone enough to be myself or say how I feel. I don’t trust any of my friends, my parents, teachers, guidance counselors, nobody. I just wake up and throw a mask on every day, and its been that way for as long as I can remember. I sit in front of a computer screen for hours on end so I can distract myself from all of that, but I always have to get off at some point. This past summer I met a girl online. We talked constantly on skype. I finally found someone I trusted. I couldn’t miss this chance, so I drove 1500 miles to see her, but she said she wanted to just be friends, but now she isn’t talking to me. But it was nice, having a reason to want to get up in the morning, and not crying myself to sleep, but now I’m back at square one. How do I live like this?