How am I supposed to live like this?

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I don’t trust anyone enough to be myself or say how I feel. I don’t trust any of my friends, my parents, teachers, guidance counselors, nobody. I just wake up and throw a mask on every day, and its been that way for as long as I can remember. I sit in front of a computer screen for hours on end so I can distract myself from all of that, but I always have to get off at some point. This past summer I met a girl online. We talked constantly on skype. I finally found someone I trusted. I couldn’t miss this chance, so I drove 1500 miles to see her, but she said she wanted to just be friends, but now she isn’t talking to me. But it was nice, having a reason to want to get up in the morning, and not crying myself to sleep, but now I’m back at square one. How do I live like this?

Category: asked January 25, 2015

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Hey :)
I know exactly how you feel. I recently overcame that. What i did, was i took a risk and acted my true self with 2-3 friends... And it was a risk. With one of the person's, it didn't work out. I trusted her and she broke it. However, the other person.... She kept my faith in trusting her. She is now my best friend.
You might have some person in your mind, who you would take this risk with. Do it. You'll probably not regret it. True, some people will break your trust. And will not accept you for who you are. But those people are insignificant in the big picture. Because the one person can become the person who trusts you, gives you reason to trust them and in the end, with trust, a person becomes a part of you.
I wish you the best of luck, may you overcome your fear in trusting people, just the way i did. :)