My parents are divorced and on the weekends when I don’t have work or college I would go over to his house and spend time with him for the weekend. I don’t have my license yet so they have to meet halfway to drop me off to other parent and to pick me up. Well about a month ago, my mom told that she wouldn’t take me to meet my dad halfway or meet halfway to pick me up because my dad wasn’t helping to pay for anything. Especially half the bill for my wisdom teeth. So my dad said that he would come and get me and also bring me home Sunday night. Well when I got there my step mom told me that my mom would have to come and get me, they wouldn’t take me home. Well I was freaking out about it and I got so worried I made myself sick and I had a panic attack. I finally managed to convince them to meet halfway so I would get home in time for college. The whole way to meet my mom my step mom was yelling at me and the whole way home my mom was yelling at me. I ended up having another panic attack. After talking to a counselor at my college she helped me calm down. A week later my dad wanted me to come back over and see him and I told him I would but not if the same thing that happened the previous weekend was going to happen again. He told me that he wasn’t going to do all the driving and so he wasn’t going to come and get me. And he made me feel like shit for not wanting to get stuck over there. Then my step mom called me and yelled at me for a whole hour and told me how I am selfish and how I don’t love them. It’s been about a month since I’ve talked to either of them because I don’t want to go over there and be held hostage again. I was starting to come to terms with my decision but then my step sister messaged me on Facebook today and made me feel bad about it again. I love my dad and I miss him but I don’t want to call him and apologize because I don’t want to go over there and be held hostage again basically. But I feel bad because I haven’t talk to him and stuff. I don’t really want to try and talk to him because I always feel like my dad and stepmom are yelling at me and putting me down a lot. They also get mad that I can’t spend time with them because I have work. No matter how many times i try to explain they just don’t get it. Every time I have to call my dad or he calls me Im literally so scared that ill get yelled again. Honestly, not talking to him for a month has made things much less stressful. But I love my dad. So I feel bad. Does me not wanting to talk to him make me a bad person?