So i have (or had) some friends at school. Next year im goin to a new one. I guess im boring person so all my contacts with those friends were going down from like january. Now we dont chat at all. In april i got a new expensive phone. One of those friends started rlly taking lots of photos w me with my phone and asking to send them to her later. It feels like one thing holding us togheter was this phone. So she was kinda acting like a friend to me. But in may i suggested to go to the beach sometime with other friends(which i didnt realy talk to back then too) and i saw how confussed she got. She then said that others and she is thinking that theyre planning to meet every month next year after school(cause were all going to different ones). So yeah she just didnt answer me. I saw how stressed she got when she needed to respond me. And she got stressed because SHE WAS ALREADY GOING TO THE BEACH WITH THOSE OTHER FRIENDS. I realized that when seconds after our chat other friend came and asked about their trip to the beach. I just felt like hit with the Rock to the heart. Like shes acting almost like a bestie when im with phone. Im not even saying how many times that other friend had insulted me in the past. Maybe thats why im so quiet?also in june they had a meet all and uploaded a pic to the fb. Im so lonely this summer