I want to be alone and theres this desire inside me that pushes me to isolate myself. The problem is that I have an online friend and Im completely dependent on her. I wish I wasn’t though because I want to end my relations with her. The other problem with that she’s depressed, etc etc (its not my place to say what her issues are exactly.) Then theres the fact that she barely messages back; she’ll just message me the next day and this is very constant. It hurts because I feel rejected by her; almost as if Im a pest but i know that I’ve been “helping her.” I can’t tell her any of this because she doesnt deserve for me to leave or for me to complain or for me to talk about myself at all. She’s dealing with worse and I shouldn’t wreck but somehow I still end up doing that. Im completely lost at this point.