My parents may not notice this but they’re putting an unbearable amount of pressure onto me. They do not flat out force me to have high grades. It’s just that every time I mess up in my academics, they would scold me a bit too much than I could handle. My mother’s voice is so loud that many of our nosy neighbors would hear it, and that’s one of the reasons I’m always scared to go out of the house. I’m a disappointment, a failure, that’s what she always tells me. Honestly, they crippled my self-confidence so badly that I was consumed with anxiety all my life.
Apart from that, I badly want to shift courses as early as possible because I feel like I’m just gonna mess this up, and finance really isn’t my forte, I’m more on the field of literature. I just wish I had the courage to tell her. Ironically, one of my worst nightmares is to fail. She would disown me. She’s the stereotypical Asian parent who value grades and reputation than their own child. How can I end all of this because I badly want to shift courses because I’m not inclined to bank related fields.
