I’m infuriated!! I can’t even think anymore It’s a terrible and honestly I’m shocked!!
I went to my friend’s boyfriend’s house (it was my friends birthday), we were playing monopoly and his aunt comes in and complemented her new haircut (which yeah that’s great) Only she keeps going and going and over doing it. She would say (I like how healthy looking it is (which is legit) but then she went on to stress “its so siiiiiilllky and shiiiinnnyyyyy and straaiighnt!!” (qualities only people of a specific origin have) occasionally glancing at me to see if I would cry!! , not black people, not only that she didn’t shower that day or brush her hair) THEN her aunt goes on to complement her boyfriends hair! He doesn’t do ANYTHING to his hair and it looks like caveman hair (his words not mine). so my hair isn’t naturally shiny its healthy and long and it’s far from an afro! Her aunt tried to fake and say she “just loves hair” when a true hair-lover loves ALL kind of hair!
I know what you’re thinking (well that doesn’t mean she is racist!) When you can always tell by how they react when they see you have dark skin, and curly hair. They give you a look any black person can notice!!
I used to think people were people and that was that but I was wrong! I didn’t think people in real life could be that way! for no reason!! I used to have adream to help everyone and make them happy but now I feel betrayed! Whenever I see some who has very pale skin my normal thoughts of wanting them to be happy spring up, then they’re shot down in a thought that: “They would want anything to do with you, because you’re a N****r!!”
I don’t understand how and why or what it does to think that way!! I can’t bring myself to be mean why does this happen??
Do you haven similar experiences? Are you racist? Are you heartbroken too? Why do you think this is happening? Will I die before I grow up because of genetics? :’(