I haven’t been doing it recently, or a lot for that matter, but since about last year May, I’ve been trying to force myself to throw up. Unfortunately, I didn’t figure it out or it didn’t work until september. Since september, I’ve purged several times, at least 10 but it’s not something I do after every meal and I don’t binge before.
I don’t know why I may do it or why I feel this way. I feel fat, but at the same time I know I’m not fat. Since 2014 I have been gaining a very small bit of stomach fat and my mother always prods at me about it and I hate looking at it and feeling it. My mom makes fun of it and tells me to lose weight somehow.
I don’t like it and Im scared Im going to become bulimic. If I am not already.