I’ve been seeing this guy since mid-August. I’m 18 and he’s 23. He introduced himself to me in math and we became friends really quickly. We bonded over our similar backgrounds and interests and were always seen talking and laughing. I met his friends and they all loved me. Everything was great.
Three weeks into dating, we go to Planned Parenthood for free birth control pills. Almost immediately, and without realizing, I become extremely emotional and crazy. I would text him two, maybe three times in a row which I had never done to anyone before. It was especially odd since I am a very introverted person and all of the sudden I was the needy girlfriend. I became extremely whiny and would complain when I got upset (which was now a lot) like when he had to end our date early to play basketball. I could tell he was getting tired of my behavior but didn’t say anything. I was also getting tired of my behavior but I couldn’t help myself. I didn’t know why I was acting like this.
Last week we had our first fight because I was somehow convinced that he was using me for sex. I blew up and said all these horrible things to him and went home and cried for 3 hours straight, until finally realizing I was being insane. I immediately apologized, but over text, in case I started crying again. I then googled, “I think my birth control is making me crazy”. I was so relieved and surprised that so many other women were having the same problem. I honestly thought I was going crazy. I told him it was the pills that were making me act this way and he understood and forgave me. We seem to be back to normal. He texted me yesterday and wished me a happy Thanksgiving, and we texted all day the day before. But still, I still said those horrible things and I have been ‘crazy’ for the majority of our relationship. We have plans to see each other this weekend and since I have been off the pill for three days, i’m hoping our relationship can return to its normal state. I also plan on apologizing to him in person.
We haven’t gotten to the ‘I love you’ stage yet by the way but I think we’re close. He’s treated me better than he should have during this time. My behavior was disgusting and I wasn’t expecting him to forgive me, let alone stay with me.
I know couples don’t usually fight this early on but considering the circumstances, is it okay that we fought? Or did I ruin the relationship?
