I have severe anxiety and moderate depression. Lately I’ve been feeling really overwhelmed but not by normal things. I’ve been flipping out because I don’t have a hobby. I have nothing that interests me and I have had multiple break downs because of it. I feel very trapped and stuck right now too. With having nothing of interest in my life right now combined with feeling trapped and that I can’t express myself in any way I’ve been stressed to the max. I have nothing to express myself and I feel like my outside doesn’t match my inside and that im stuck. I’m also a poor college student so anything that is an expensive hobby or getting clothes to match my inside isn’t an option. I just need some help. I’m bugging out and it’s getting worse
First of all love, take a deep breath. It's going to be okay. These feelings, your depression is not who you are it's just a small part of you. One that's temporary. I can relate to not finding motivation to do something, but you shouldn't stop trying. There's lots of hobbies out there. I for one, find it relaxing to go on walks, just go anywhere without a destination in mind whatsoever, just let your legs work and breathe in some nice, clean air automatically makes you more alert.
Though I think, what I've come to find in times like these, being in a position like that when everything seems hopeless and shitty, is to do something that isn't about you. Helping others, maybe volunteer in a shelter or help out your neighbors mowing the lawn or something, whatever it is. It gives you a sort of purpose, to be needed by someone and not focus on yourself for a little while.
As for the second part about expressing yourself, the easiest thing would be to maybe keep some kind of diary or something. Just write things down, don't worry about it making sense or being messy, that's for your eyes only to see and try to figure out where the anxiety comes from. Though, my absolutely best way, is too let music do the talking. Sometimes it's just impossible to try and put a feeling into words, and then you hear that song, and it's like you were the one who wrote it. 'That's exactly what I'm feeling right now'. Perhaps it'll work for you as well.
There are plenty of free hobbies that you could try. One of my favorites is hiking. I find that when I'm feeling stuck and devoid of inspiration walking through the woods really helps. If you're not into nature, there are plenty of other things you could do. Maybe try something that's completely out of your usual comfort zone, something that you never thought you'd like. If you like animals, go volunteer at a shelter. If you like people, you could volunteer to tutor people or sit with the elderly. Also, if you have a counselor or someone at school that you could go talk to, I highly recommend doing that. They may even have more ideas for things on campus you could try.
I can completely relate to that feeling of emptiness you get when nothing feels like it drives you. I don't feel comfortable with who I am right night, but i'm not letting that stop me from trying to find out who I am. You just have to keep trying new things you'll meet interesting people and learn more about yourself.
Dear Mitch, I was so depressed 1 year ago/ Had problems with family, boyfirend. Nothing got me interested. I even was almost kicked from uni, had really lots of debts. Hapilly, my uncle (he is a uni proffesor) found the way to help me with writing my papers.
Anyway, hapilly my friends helped me to go through this. They presented me a trip to Mexico. Travelling helps!