Hi everyone! First of all, thanks for reading my question if you do.
Now, let’s say that I feel stupid, the most incompetent and pathetic person, if I asked a friend I’m sure she would laugh, but I know that here I can express myself.
So, I wanted advices to.. talk freely with boys. I know it seems really strange, and I’m not actually someone who doesn’t talk to boys (when I was little I always felt better with them than with the girls) but I just can’t talk with someone who I have a crush with. And it’s weird because I had two boyfriends (with both it ended pretty quickly) but still, every time there’s an interesting guy who I want to talk to, I can’t take the courage to talk to him. I want to change this side of me.
It’s been already two weeks since I’m seeing this guy coming to my same class, I have plenty of reasons to talk to him (we’re both first years, we’re both in the same course, we CAN start talking about something) but my body seems to avoid this contact. I just look at him from the back, and it drives me crazy because I don’t know anymore how many times I did something like this: staying quite right beside my crush without saying nothing (and if you’re asking me how was it with my ex, well, I met them online, so it was completely different).
I feel even more dumb because I’m already 20, and yet I can’t even try to know someone without panicking, or hiding eye contacts, and so on, I feel like a little kid..
