My whole life ive never been good enough for people, ive always tried so hard to make friends and treat them as best that i could to keep them in my life, but no one wants me they all just leave. My bestfriend just left me a few days ago. I fucked up AGAIN! but this time was the last straw i cant take this fucking crap anymore and im just done with people. All i do iss fucking make them hate me, i deserve to be alone. I just thought this time it was different i thought i had found my first real friend and shes just gone and given up on me like everyone else. I thought it could be different i really didnt know how she felt i didnt mean for this to happen i just wanna fucking go back in time and fix this shit because i need her in my life., but she doesnt want me anymore. I just want one more chance to make things right so that i dont loose the best thing ive ever had, but she wont let me and its all my fault im a horrible person and a horrible friend. all i do is mess up. and im done messing up with this. Im done. Finished trying to please anyone. From now on i have to stay away from people before i drive somone else fucking insane. I deserve no one. and im never going to be happy. Im a fucking freak and i belong locked up sommewhere. Im finished.