Hello. I’m Ellysa, formerly known as Kitt. I wish I was dead…. I don’t want to hurt anyone, or do anything that I’d know I’d regret, but I wish I could leave and no one would miss me. I wish I could overdose and die in my sleep. I know I need help, but I’m not willing to go to the hospital right now. Too much I’ve got to do. But I feel like no one but my one friend gets me. I feel unsafe in my house. I feel disregarded, insulted, and broken. I wish I could live with my family. I really do, but they just get on my nerves….. I can’t stand them. I wish I could take a week break at the least away from them, but I know I can’t. I wish my mom would take the job and move to Atlanta so I can move in with people who do understand me….. I just wish I were dead. Anyone else feel that way?