Last night a close friend and housemate of mine tried killing herself.
She suffers from depression, its never gotten that bad before.
She is going back to therapy etc as she knows its not right.
I have been asked to not tell our other housemates about what happened, she has gone to her parents this evening to discuss therapy etcetc but they do not know she tried killing herself.
I am now alone in my room, I think it has just hit me and I feel a little isolated and abandoned.
If I were to try anything (not that i will) no one would know untill it was to late.
I feel underappreciated as I often have to clean up other people’s messes and am then left when they are fixed, I too suffer from depression.
So, now I’m just wishing someone would look after me for a change, because I always sort myself out I am always okay.
I had to clean her wound for gods sake. Today I went into town and bought bandages etc. Now its 00:11, I am alone, cannot talk to anyone, my partners phone is broken so I cannot talk to them about it either.
Earlier part of me wished I’d get hit by a car just for them to notice me and maybe take care of me for a change. Which is awful, and I am now in a guilt spiral.
What the hell is wrong with me?