Hi.
My brother is a self confessed alcoholic. We’re both in our early 30s. We used to be close but now he comes and goes from my life. He promises to show up and doesnt..some years he’ll only show up at Christmas. It always seems like he only shows up when there’s something of value in it for him. He even missed my pregnancy and didn’t meet my baby until 6 months past. I tearfully told him I needed him to be a part of our lives. He apologized as usual and said he’s going to get help. I haven’t heard from him now for months. He has no phone and I don’t know where he’s living. A few years ago, he lived in a homeless shelter for quite some time.
I feel like he’s already gone..I feel horrible thinking it would be no different than him being dead….I’ve already grieved for him. He would make me so sad and angry but i cant live like that anymore. I almost feel indifference now but obviously a part of me still cares since I felt compelled to write this.
Any thoughts or advice would be truly appreciated. Thank you! G