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    YourPillow posted an update 10 years ago

    Why can’t I ever look people in the eye.

    Mood : Crappy
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    YourPillow posted a new activity comment 10 years, 4 months ago

    In reply to: YourPillow posted an update Like… I feel empty. Not exactly lost, because everything is just routine, but really, just empty. I’m in my last year of highschool, I don’t see myself anywhere when I grow up, I suck […] View

    It took time for me to discover that people could reply and I’m deeply sorry I didn’t see this earlier. Thank you for taking the time to care
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    YourPillow posted a new activity comment 10 years, 4 months ago

    In reply to: YourPillow posted an update What is this talk about replacing what you initially wanted with something that makes you feel bittersweet? If I wanted a horse for christmas and could only find a pony, I would take […] View

    And how long do I have to care for if before I get my ending result? I am patient, but I really don’t know how much I can give if the process is long.
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    YourPillow posted a new activity comment 10 years, 4 months ago

    In reply to: YourPillow posted an update Do I need attention? Yes. Do I command attention? Yes Am I satisfied of all that attentikn? No. Why? Because at the end of every day I realise I didn’t need any of it and I’m just […] View

    Do you not know what you have done? I cried all over my phone because of your reply… but thank you, really. It’s scary how simple words can really get to a person.
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    YourPillow replied to the forum topic Who are you? I am… in the group Group logoI am.. 10 years, 4 months ago

    This is probably late but…
    I am… lost.
    I am… broken beyond being truly and fully repaired.
    I am… alone amongst my surroundings.
    I am… sad within my undeniably smile.
    I am… an act within my so […]
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    YourPillow posted an update 10 years, 4 months ago

    What is this talk about replacing what you initially wanted with something that makes you feel bittersweet? If I wanted a horse for christmas and could only find a pony, I would take it? Why the fuck would I take it?! It’s either I go all the way, or get nothing at all. That’s who I am. And I think I am what got me in suck a wreck….

    Mood : Ashamed
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      Angel replied 10 years, 4 months ago

      Well, if you give them love and patience, ponies do grow into horses over time.. Maybe it’s not so bad to start small?

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      YourPillow replied 10 years, 4 months ago

      And how long do I have to care for if before I get my ending result? I am patient, but I really don’t know how much I can give if the process is long.

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    YourPillow posted an update 10 years, 4 months ago

    Do I need attention? Yes. Do I command attention? Yes Am I satisfied of all that attentikn? No. Why? Because at the end of every day I realise I didn’t need any of it and I’m just trying to fill these empty spaces in my heart with something I can never truly obtain: love.

    Mood : Sick
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      integrated yard replied 10 years, 4 months ago

      YourPillow,

      Please try to remember that you are not alone in what you are going through and that even if you feel alone, you most certainly don’t need to.

      There are so many of us here for you and ready to help and listen – all you need to do is reach out (which is often the most difficult part of all).

      Stay strong and keep smiling…[Read more]

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      YourPillow replied 10 years, 4 months ago

      Do you not know what you have done? I cried all over my phone because of your reply… but thank you, really. It’s scary how simple words can really get to a person.

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      Oli replied 10 years, 3 months ago

      Stay strong, I’m here for you (hugs) you are not alone.

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    YourPillow posted an update 10 years, 4 months ago

    The fuck I need help for? Do I look like I need help? NO. I need some answers, that’s what the fuck I need.

    Mood : Annoyed
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    YourPillow posted an update 10 years, 4 months ago

    Do you know how much I hate my situation right now? I’m in my last year of high school and my idiot guardians are telling me to get on a certain path like, fuck you and your help, I do shit my way. It’s not the best way, but I’ll manage and I’ll be able to take the criticism becausr I chose that way. I’d have no one to blame but muself and…[Read more]

    Mood : Moody
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    YourPillow posted an update 10 years, 4 months ago

    I think I’m just this fucking idiot girl who lives on lies. I lie like I breathe and I’m so fucking ashamed of it. But wtf can I do. I have nothing. Why do I lie? Because I get so fucking mad I opened my mouth and instead of shutting it, I continue with bullshit information. Fuck my life.

    Mood : Guilty
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    YourPillow posted an update 10 years, 4 months ago

    Do I really need to live happily? I mean, if no one cares, who the fuck is this all for? Myself? I can’t even tell someone what are my hobbies, who am I kidding? I should just stay quiet and go on with this path they call life… no interests, no relationships, no connections or joy whatsoever. I mean, when was the last time I was REALLY happy?…[Read more]

    Mood : Discontent
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    YourPillow posted an update 10 years, 4 months ago

    I only ever really cry over myself… I mean, I’ve cried over movies once or twice and I’ve cried because I wanted to practise crying on cue like certain actors and I’ve cried at funerals. But I cry more often because of myself. Because I’m just so lost, and confused, and fat, and shitty, and my family has this whole dramatic feud going on…[Read more]

    Mood : Disappointed
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    YourPillow posted an update 10 years, 4 months ago

    How the hell are you going to tell me to “keep up my grades” when you’re the same idiot that orders me around the house?! Then I get on the computer to find kyself and scold me for not studying?! THE FUCK YOU WANT ME TO STUDY? FUCKING AERONAUTICS?! I’M LOOKING UP WAYS TO NOT FUCK THE SHIT OUT OF MY LIFE DAMNIT! And don’t even dare tell me to…[Read more]

    Mood : Bitchy
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    YourPillow posted an update 10 years, 4 months ago

    I don’t draw anymore, I hate that I’ve lost my ways with words, I’ve lost interest in dancing and my fucking music taste is shit and I don’t even want to be around the same people for more than 3 minutes. What the actual FUCK is going on?! I hate everything but everything else is just so goddamn boring. I can’t even work right and here I am…[Read more]

    Mood : Annoyed
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    YourPillow posted an update 10 years, 4 months ago

    Are you serious tho..? You ask me to teach you a dance for this competition and you say it’s too complicated and you want me to make the moves more simpler and to change practically everything because y’all can’t follow A FUCKING BEAT? Y’all are joking. You guys don’t know what I did just to teach you these sick moves and you shoot me down by…[Read more]
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    YourPillow posted an update 10 years, 4 months ago

    Like… I feel empty. Not exactly lost, because everything is just routine, but really, just empty. I’m in my last year of highschool, I don’t see myself anywhere when I grow up, I suck in my studies, I refuse to get help, I struggle every damn day to wake up and play along with everyone because everyone is just so happy. What do I do? I’m…[Read more]

    Mood : Depressed
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    YourPillow posted an update 10 years, 5 months ago

    Why would you say that. Why would you thank me after giving me an order. How fucking dare you. “Would you wash the dishes? Thank you.” FUCK YOU YOU FUCKING LITTLE SHIT!! Don’t thank me?! WTF was your point?! What the hell are you thanking me for? For following your stupid order? Are you dumb?! Don’t. Thank. Me. I will hate you from head to toe…[Read more]

    Mood : Aggravated
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    YourPillow posted an update 10 years, 5 months ago

    “Goodmorning”. Why the hell would you say that, why. Are you wishing me a goodmorning? Are you hoping that I have a good morning? Are you suggesting that I should have a good fucking morning?! What the actual fuck! I hate when you blind idiots greet me a good freaking morning when my face CLEARLY looks like shit. Like, am I smilling? Do I look…[Read more]

    Mood : Pissed off
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    YourPillow posted an update 10 years, 5 months ago

    Head up, stay strong, fake a smile and move on

    Mood : Bored
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