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    Spectrolite7 posted an update 3 weeks, 4 days ago

    i sort of feel kind of numb and unable to let out tears from the pain I feel at times and this makes me feel like I have to make myself bleed but I don’t think it’s right that i think that way… it’s like i’m just numb… life is like a dream and i’m just trying to keep myself afloat in all of this… yet wanting to cry but not being able to. At least my life is peaceful and there’s good things that happen every day.. my life is still developing to a better life. I just feel awkward because it feels mediocre but i know things are working out for me… i’m choosing to be grateful for what i do have but it does make me want to cry because of what i feel like i dont have.. i feel confused about what to do… maybe i should drink… i should probably have some wine or something.. just for one night…

    • Hey. I been there I actually where you’re at now. Firstly, don’t feel bad for wanting to cry even though things are improving. You see celebrities cry and get angry when it seems like they should be the happiest people on earth. When I feel like you are now, I try to tell myself that it will pass and that i need to feel the bad moments just like i want to feel the good ones too. It keeps you humbled in the end or at least with me it have. I say enjoy your glass of wine, kick back, and just think out everything until you can’t think anymore. You can always message me if you want to as you already know.

    • I just feel weird… I hope i can relax more..
      thanks @layla95

    • Try to stay positive and keep making things better for you @spectrolite7, get your thoughts and feelings out in a way that benefits you, I want to see you truly smiling and living a life that makes you happy, relax and always be wonderful to yourself, go forward with a sense of confidence and never give up, you can do it, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone :) (hugs)