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    Spectrolite7 posted an update 1 year, 1 month ago

    Going to drink the pain away later if i can get myself out of bed… im going to drink it all away. I just suck as a person, im not good enough for the world… im failing at life.. i totally messed up by going to a bad college too… i messed my whole life up… im going to buy enough drinks to last me a while… i dont usually drink but just seeing how much i have failed in life just makes me want to drown myself in alcohol and forget everything… i hate the way my life became… i made so many mistakes that i can’t take back. I felt like ending my life or slicing myself up but i felt that was too extreme so im going to drink my sorrow away… maybe then i can express more of my pain and let loose… i hardly act on my impulses and the pain just festers inside me… ive had it with the pain and frustration… ive had enough… i fucked up big time….. and i suck at fixing it…

    • Please don’t do anything bad to yourself @spectrolite7, things may seem hard but they will change for the better, do your best to focus on getting yourself to a good place emotionally and mentally, everything will be OK, hold your head up high and know you will beat all your struggles, remember you are a fighter and survivor who will overcome, don’t let anything stand in your way, show the world how truly brilliant you are, believe in yourself and keep going forward, there is always light at the end of the tunnel, feel free to inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone :) (hugs)

    • @spectrolite7 You do with what you have, college is good, prestigious or not, work at the pace you can and try to not compare yourself to abstract expectations, sounds like you are in a place where you have what you need to go on studying and be able to do something different eventually, but using alcohol regularly to curb your how you feel doesn’t work well in the long term, so be cautious.

    • //ive had it with the pain and frustration// @spectrolite7
      ~ Why do the feeling ’pain’ and ’frustration’ exist in the first place? Might you be aware of that?