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    Spectrolite7 posted an update 1 week, 1 day ago

    I feel so flawed… but I know I have to keep going… keep living and trusting the flow of my life. I know that I don’t mean to hurt anyone but I know that certain traits of mine can seem hurtful even though it’s not intentional. This comes with being human… I am very loving, forgiving, and truly desire the best for myself and others. I…[Read more]

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    Spectrolite7 posted a new activity comment 1 week, 1 day ago

    In reply to: Spectrolite7 posted an update I felt lost, lost in a hole, a black hole, never to return home, I had to search even through the fall, the abyss down the floor, I saw kaleidoscope images, in my mind, through the […] View

    @oliver thanks.. I’m better each day.

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    Spectrolite7 posted an update 1 week, 2 days ago

    I felt lost, lost in a hole, a black hole, never to return home, I had to search even through the fall, the abyss down the floor, I saw kaleidoscope images, in my mind, through the throws of life, as i tried to be whole, by picking up pieces to connect my soul, back together, with love. I thought I was gone, sometimes I still do, but I keep going…[Read more]

    • Please don’t feel lost, alone or sad @spectrolite7, you are such a fabulous, special and amazing person who deserves all the happiness and hope in the world, everything will be OK, focus on all the things that put a smile on your face and know so many great moments lie ahead for you, you are a survivor who will make it and never gives up, believe…[Read more]

    • @oliver thanks.. I’m better each day.

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    Spectrolite7 posted an update 1 week, 2 days ago

    I am creativity, I am love, I am emotion, I am whole, I am me, I am part of the universal love, connected to all.

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    Spectrolite7 posted an update 1 week, 2 days ago

    I live in a beautiful world… everything is an illusion… The earth made it legal, that’s why it exists. We live in a beautiful world. Beauty surrounds us, look at the way the stars twinkle in the night sky? the grass, the trees, the house…. I have it in my reality. It exists…. I am strong… I am worthy of everything beautiful.. don’t you…[Read more]

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    Spectrolite7 posted an update 1 week, 2 days ago

    They took a piece of me… stole it like it was theirs… is it because of love or is it because of fear? I felt like I was not myself… it was reinforced by their judgments, their judgments reflected my judgment of myself and I let them take a part of me… I didn’t know that I was supposed to fight for myself but I tried to throughout life. I…[Read more]

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    Spectrolite7 posted an update 1 week, 2 days ago

    I went into a world… A world within a world… and I came out… and I found myself… I found myself… I was in a world…

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    Spectrolite7 posted a new activity comment 1 week, 2 days ago

    In reply to: SomeLamePerson posted an update Feeling pretty worthless to be honest. Hoping I can qualify for SSI since I can’t ever seem to hold a job for more than a few months. View

    make sure to get a lawyer

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    Spectrolite7 posted an update 1 week, 2 days ago

    have I been stopping myself? Have I been selling myself short? Have I limited myself? Have I slowed down my progress? Have I been failing? Have I been causing my own pain? Am I wrong? Am I just not worth it in this world? Am I just fucked up? Should I be asking these questions?

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    Spectrolite7 posted an update 1 week, 2 days ago

    i feel like i’m alive more each second… i’m one with everything. I’m integrating the energies of the highest force of love.

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    Spectrolite7 posted an update 1 week, 2 days ago

    why do I feel like I just never felt like my true self? why do I feel like I’m not perfect? why do I feel like I’m not aligned completely? Is there really something wrong with me?

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    Spectrolite7 posted an update 1 week, 2 days ago

    why do i feel so fragmented, why do I feel like I’m not really who i’m supposed to be? WHY do I feel like I am lost? WHY do I feel like I never knew myself?

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    Spectrolite7 posted an update 1 week, 2 days ago

    why do I feel so hurt? I feel like I’m not perfect… I feel like there’s something wrong with me… like I’m flawed… like I’m just probably going to deal with this pain, this hurt for my whole life… I can’t stand what goes through my mind sometimes… i feel ashamed of my thoughts… sometimes… I’m in a difficult situations when it…[Read more]

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    Spectrolite7 posted an update 1 week, 2 days ago

    being kind isnt always the answer if a certain relationship isn’t going well… i think my lesson is to be more assertive… and tell people how I truly feel… even if it doesn’t sound all that nice to say it but its important. I have to say it with confidence and don’t regret it… I feel like I said things before and got treated badly in…[Read more]

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    Spectrolite7 posted an update 1 week, 2 days ago

    feeling a bit sad today but it’s ok… I know my worth and how loved I am by so many and the universe.

    • Please don’t feel sad @spectrolite7, you are such a special, fabulous and incredible person who is so loved by the BT community and many others, smile and always be kind to yourself, stay upbeat and focus on spreading your wings as far as you can, go out into the world and shine, you can do it, believe in yourself and go forward with confidence,…[Read more]

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    Spectrolite7 posted an update 1 week, 4 days ago

    sometimes i feel bad for being awkward and having autism but then I know how important it is to accept myself and know that I deserve the best no matter what. I have to continue to love myself even if I’m weird and even if some people might think i’m so weird… i’m fine the way I am actually all these thoughts aren’t even really my own……[Read more]

    • @spectrolite7 people are “allergic” to different. Autism comes with awkwardness, yes, but is a special kind of awkardness. People like you usually have so much to say and share! So don’t feel bad. Accept who you are, love who you are. Just because most people don’t get it doesn’t mean you aren’t special, cause just like you said right here,…[Read more]

    • Love, embrace and be proud of every part of yourself inside and out @spectrolite7, you are a unique and incredible human-being, everyone has their own quirks in a special way, you do too, spread your wings around and be accepting of yourself, you can do it, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone :) (hugs)

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    Spectrolite7 posted a new activity comment 1 week, 4 days ago

    In reply to: Spectrolite7 posted an update just came back home from my trip to California two days ago.. it feels awkward being back.. I felt some kind of negative energy and some energy from my past resurfacing… I’ve had […] View

    thanks @oliver I really appreciate your message… I drank water and will keep taking good care of myself.

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    Spectrolite7 posted an update 1 week, 4 days ago

    just came back home from my trip to California two days ago.. it feels awkward being back.. I felt some kind of negative energy and some energy from my past resurfacing… I’ve had headaches the past two days… i hope it goes away… I think I should drink more water… I think i may be dehydrated because I didn’t drink much during the trip……[Read more]

    • Hope you had a wonderful time in California @spectrolite7, do drink and eat well, look after yourself and stay healthy, always be the fantastic person that you are and keep going forward, I want to see you feeling good, smile and always believe in yourself, you can do it, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never…[Read more]

    • thanks @oliver I really appreciate your message… I drank water and will keep taking good care of myself.

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    Spectrolite7 posted an update 3 weeks, 3 days ago

    i don’t like when it feels like people have ulterior motives… I like knowing what I’m doing before meeting someone. I like to feel respected and things to be out in the open. I like to feel safe. I kind of don’t like my facebook.. I feel like the fact that I have friends there from my whole life they have different ways of being and I think…[Read more]

    • @spectrolite7 You said it yourself, you sshouldn’t use fb. Has been proved that people get incredibly depressed with social media, and facebook is the worst. You see everyone with these happy lifes, which is all a lie I can tell you that. People do this big scneario that everything is going wonderfull, that they have so many friends and…[Read more]

    • Don’t use social media like Facebook, Instagram or Twitter if it is going to upset you @spectrolite7, you are a wonderful person who deserves to be part of a community that puts a smile on your face, I agree with @marikofujimoto, do things that make you feel wonderful, find awesome activities to do, spend time with the people, animals or things…[Read more]

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    Spectrolite7 posted a new activity comment 3 weeks, 4 days ago

    In reply to: Spectrolite7 posted an update I kind of feel like I limited myself but it’s mostly because I didn’t know I could do certain things… I learned recently that anything is possible, it’s a matter of your intention and […] View

    thanks!

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