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    Spectrolite7 posted an update 3 weeks, 3 days ago

    i feel so fucked up… theres too much to fix… if i dont fix this the numbness will remain.

    Mood : Sick
    • You will beat all your struggles and come out so much stronger @spectrolite7, remember to hold your head up high and stay focused on the bright future that lies ahead for you, everything will be OK, so much happiness and hope will come into your life, be kind to yourself and never give up, you can do it, go forward with confidence and believe in…[Read more]

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    Spectrolite7 posted an update 3 weeks, 3 days ago

    only i can fix my own problem…

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    Spectrolite7 posted an update 3 weeks, 3 days ago

    im glad things work out for me in life.. i just have issue with caring to much about what people think and it fucks me up because i am not my real self at times… im so concerned with appearing fine… like nothing is wrong with me.. im fucked up…

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    Spectrolite7 posted an update 3 weeks, 4 days ago

    im kind of unhappy with myself… i know i’m a decent person but feel like im not good enough or something..

    • You are worth it, you do matter and you are good enough @spectrolite7, please be kind to yourself and remember to always smile brightly, hold your head up high and don’t let anything bring you down, you will be OK, believe in yourself and keep going forward with happiness, you can do it, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong,…[Read more]

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    Spectrolite7 posted an update 3 weeks, 4 days ago

    there’s a little hairline crack on my laptop’s screen… wonder how that got there… i pressed it and it got bigger… i can still see through my screen but there’s a small crack.. my laptop is old, I’m getting a new one soon. My laptop still works fine but it’s just getting old…

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    Spectrolite7 posted a new activity comment 3 weeks, 4 days ago

    In reply to: Spectrolite7 posted an update i sort of feel kind of numb and unable to let out tears from the pain I feel at times and this makes me feel like I have to make myself bleed but I don’t think it’s right that i think […] View

    I just feel weird… I hope i can relax more..
    thanks @layla95

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    Spectrolite7 posted an update 3 weeks, 4 days ago

    i sort of feel kind of numb and unable to let out tears from the pain I feel at times and this makes me feel like I have to make myself bleed but I don’t think it’s right that i think that way… it’s like i’m just numb… life is like a dream and i’m just trying to keep myself afloat in all of this… yet wanting to cry but not being able…[Read more]

    • Hey. I been there I actually where you’re at now. Firstly, don’t feel bad for wanting to cry even though things are improving. You see celebrities cry and get angry when it seems like they should be the happiest people on earth. When I feel like you are now, I try to tell myself that it will pass and that i need to feel the bad moments just like…[Read more]

    • I just feel weird… I hope i can relax more..
      thanks @layla95

    • Try to stay positive and keep making things better for you @spectrolite7, get your thoughts and feelings out in a way that benefits you, I want to see you truly smiling and living a life that makes you happy, relax and always be wonderful to yourself, go forward with a sense of confidence and never give up, you can do it, inbox me anytime if you…[Read more]

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    Spectrolite7 posted a new activity comment 3 weeks, 4 days ago

    In reply to: laylab95 posted an update My family always have thought the worse of me my entire life and even though i am grown, it affects my way of thinking and how i handle people outside of them. How can I ever put my foot […] View

    You’re a strong person and very valuable to this world, you are worthy of the best. Don’t let anyone walk all over you, speak your mind, stand in your truth, tell them how you feel and how the way they have treated you is not in the best standards and that you deserve respect. You are so special, think of yourself as a goddess who only accepts…[Read more]

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    Spectrolite7 posted a new activity comment 3 weeks, 4 days ago

    In reply to: Oli posted an update The struggle goes on, I wish I knew what happiness is, all I know is that this world, my lonely and depressing existence holds no joy for me, everything is just so bleak, dark and sad, I’m […] View

    sorry you’re feeling like this… you’re a very helpful, kind person who deserves the best in life. I believe that you’ll have brighter days and everything will start to make more sense. Do more of what you love and helps you to feel better, @Oliver. Everything will be just fine, hang in there, life does get better especially if we believe and…[Read more]

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    Spectrolite7 posted an update 3 weeks, 5 days ago

    i’m going with the flow in the right direction to see my dreams come true… i trust where my heart takes me…

    • I wish you the best in your journey :)

    • Keep going in the right direction and never give up @spectrolite7, you will achieve all your dreams and be successful, stay upbeat and always smile, you can do it, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone :) (hugs)

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    Spectrolite7 posted a new activity comment 3 weeks, 5 days ago

    In reply to: Spectrolite7 posted an update I had a dream that I was skateboarding and I was manualing and doing many interesting tricks… View

    @layla95 yea I do skate in real life… I usually skate way better in my dream than I do in real life but I think once I start having a more structured, organized environment, the skateboarding will pick up because then I’ll be able to completely focus on it.

    @oliver thanks, I’m glad I had that dream.

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    Spectrolite7 posted a new activity comment 3 weeks, 5 days ago

    In reply to: laylab95 posted an update Lately i have been getting used in every way you can possibly think of. When i don’t do things for people then they want to flip out and make me feel like crap. I have to take my family […] View

    it would probably help to ask your family to donate to gas money every now and then since you are doing them a favor and in order to keep going the gas needs to as well, don’t do your brother’s tough homework, that’s his job to do that, tell him you are trying to get yourself together and it’s too stressful for you. A job will come eventually,…[Read more]

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    Spectrolite7 posted an update 3 weeks, 6 days ago

    I had a dream that I was skateboarding and I was manualing and doing many interesting tricks…

    • It’s nice to see you having positive dreams @spectrolite7, keep being amazing and fantastic, I’m always here if you need to chat or vent, inbox me anytime, stay strong, you are never alone :) (hugs)

    • Do you skateboard any in reality by any chance?

    • @layla95 yea I do skate in real life… I usually skate way better in my dream than I do in real life but I think once I start having a more structured, organized environment, the skateboarding will pick up because then I’ll be able to completely focus on it.

      @oliver thanks, I’m glad I had that dream.

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    Spectrolite7 posted an update 3 weeks, 6 days ago

    i feel like when i’m around other people, i can’t really be myself. I get absorbed by their energy… I really require my own space in order to be myself and be comfortable. I think that’s why I’ve been unhappy most of my life because i can’t seem to feel comfortable when other people are in the same room as me.

    • Do what makes you comfortable and happy in your own way @spectrolite7, surround yourself with all the things that bring a smile to your face, hold your head up high and keep going forward, you will be OK, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone :) (hugs)

    • @spectrolite7 i couldn’t agree with someone as much as i do you… That’s exactly how i feel. People tell me to go out more but i ”feel” too much of others dramas it’s just a lot. That’s why i just prefer my solitude.

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    Spectrolite7 posted an update 3 weeks, 6 days ago

    I feel better than yesterday…

    • Glad to see you are feeling better @spectrolite7, keep smiling and always be the fantastic human-being that you are, remember you are awesome in every single way, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone :) (hugs)

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    Spectrolite7 posted an update 4 weeks, 1 day ago

    i have to quiet my mind for a while.. i find that hard to do. I need to learn to meditate.

    • Oli replied 4 weeks ago

      Do relax and calm your mind @spectrolite7, take deep breathes and focus on putting yourself at ease, do go for walks and try to clear your thoughts, you will be OK, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone :) (hugs)

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    Spectrolite7 posted an update 4 weeks, 1 day ago

    its time for me to get back to living life better… and go to the gym.. and just take more walks outdoors. all these issues that happen in life have been taking my attention away from some things ive been meaning to do but i just can’t quite time everything right… i have to stop going to one of the programs, it’s just way too much…

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    Spectrolite7 posted an update 4 weeks, 1 day ago

    i think i feel better…. i’m going to sleep now…

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    Spectrolite7 posted an update 4 weeks, 1 day ago

    i feel depressed… i feel like i need to sleep the stress and pain away… i was hoping i would feel happier and instead i’m feeling some kind of deep pain… its like i have anger but dont want to feel angry… i feel kind of like i had something to do with this but i’m not the one who made my friend’s decision so i dont understand why it’s…[Read more]

    • Focus on making yourself happier and positive @spectrolite7, be there for your friend as much as you can but take care of yourself too, I’m sure things will work out and everything will be OK, surround yourself with brightness and never give up, you can do it, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone :) (hugs)

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