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    silveRose143 posted an update 2 weeks, 5 days ago

    Update:
    I am now 37 weeks and I’m absolutely terrified. New and old symptoms are coming back but harder than ever and I’m very scared. I’m in a lot of pain physically, emotionally, and mentally. My suicidal thoughts are coming back and the urge to cut is also coming back. My boyfriend has been very helpful but the urge and thoughts are still there. I know I should be happy when I have everything I need but I don’t know. I’m scared and tired. Hopefully when she’s here, I’ll be okay. I know I shouldn’t depend on her but I will try my best to keep going. I’m not making any sense anymore. I’m sorry. I haven’t slept yet. I’m sorry for the long post. Thank you for your time.

    • Do look after yourself physically, mentally and emotionally @silverose143, make sure both you and your beautiful child are healthy, hold your head up high and know you will be OK because you are strong, brave and courageous, surround yourself with happiness and people who bring you hope, you can do it, never give up, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, you are never alone :) (hugs)

    • @silverose143 everything will be fine, it’s a blessing that your boyfriend is very helpful.. why do you feel a lot of pain if I may ask? Is there in particular triggering those feelings?

    • @Spectrolite7 Part of the pain is from my pregnancy. Most of it is just that I feel tired of living. Of hearing and seeing my family struggle. Of making people feel bad because of me. Im just so tired.