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    Oli posted an update 1 day, 8 hours ago

    I’m so alone, depressed and lonely, things will never get better for me because I’m forever stuck in this dark hole of pain, sadness and hopelessness, it’s been this way for years and will never improve, honestly if I died tomorrow I wouldn’t care, this world is just so bleak as is my future, I have no purpose, I’m just existing day to day,…[Read more]

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    Oli posted an update 3 months, 3 weeks ago

    I cannot be saved from sinking deeper into this hole of depression, loneliness, sadness and pain, everything is so bleak for me, I can’t see any way out, it’s better to just give up, stop trying and fighting and to disappear from this cruel world, it’s not worth it anymore and I don’t matter, how anyone can love, care about or put up with me is…[Read more]

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    • We are here to listen if you need it Oli! Thank you for being a bright light to us even when you’re down. We are always here to listen and this website has great listeners and therapist to talk to. Keep your head up and always remember your BT community loves you!

    • You have done a great deal of good for this community, which is something to be proud of. Please reach out to me if you want to talk!

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    Oli posted an update 3 months, 3 weeks ago

    I’m always going to feel lost forever, my life is just filled with sadness and hopelessness, drowning in this dark abyss of pain, depression and loneliness, everything is just so bleak, I don’t have a purpose or direction, I need to disappear because I am a burden and a complete failure that no one loves or cares about, things will never improve…[Read more]

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    • @oliver no one in this life is a burden, specially you! You save lifes constantly here on blahtherapy. We know that when we are having a rough day Oliver will be there with a sweet message or comment. Believe it or not that is like a miracle for people with anxiety, depression and many more issues. So you’re not a burden, you’re like a guardian…[Read more]

    • @oliver I can attest to what @marikofujimoto says, a year ago around this time I was facing an issue that I seem to be facing again Ironically and you had posted a reply, and while it may not have been personalized since you don’t/didn’t know me, it still helped. I may not be very good at consoling or helping people since I often find that I’m…[Read more]

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    Oli posted an update 4 months ago

    The darkness and sadness will always follow me no matter what I do, I feel so lonely and alone in this cruel world, I wish I could see a light at the end of the tunnel but I don’t, my future is so bleak, I honestly need to disappear, how do I break out of this terrible cycle of depression and find happiness?, I just don’t know, I’m a ugly…[Read more]

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    • It may be difficult to see now, but if you keep trying you will look back and realize how things will get better. All of us here care about and for you Oli! You are such a bright spirit, I wish everyone, including myself, could aspire to be like you. Stay strong ♥ You can get through anything. Anything.

    • How can you say you’re a failure! If we ever meet, first thing I’m going to do is give you a slap! Hahaha, no, I’m joking, but still. You’re helping everyone here, I understand that in this way you gain more confidence because you want to feel needed for people. And you are. Without a doubt. Everytime I log in, I see a message from you,…[Read more]

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    Oli posted an update 4 months, 2 weeks ago

    The past couple of days have been difficult for me, on a personal note, my sadness is still with me but I’m trying to stay positive and fight it as best I can, I recently lost a dear friend to suicide and I’m feeling guilty for not being able to prevent or stop it, I wish I could go back in time and stop my friend from harming themselves, I just…[Read more]

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    • @oliver you couldn’t have done anything Oli. You helped that person as much as you could , that decision was made from that person, not your fault. And I’m sending you much love, so sorry for losing your friend. Wish I could give you a huge hug.
      Also thank you for the lovely message, I hope everyone keeps this message close to their minds and…[Read more]

    • @Oliver
      I’m sorry for your loss, Oli. I can’t imagine the pain you must be going through, and I know it’s easier said than done, but you can’t blame yourself. Knowing who you are, I’m sure you did all you could have to help and be there for them.
      My thoughts are with you, buddy. <3

    • I’m so sorry for your loss! ♥ You are such a kind soul.

    • I’m so sorry, no one should have to suffer through the loss of a suicide. Stay strong, okay? If there’s anything I know, it’s that you’re an amazing and supportive friend. Every time I get on BT you post a supportive and kind message. If you ever need anything, I’m always here. You can do anything.

    • I am sorry to hear that Oli, please do not feel guilty. I think you are a wonderful person who touches so many people with your empathy and compassion. Sometimes, we can help a person, but it is up to them to take the right steps forward. It is awful, but sometimes it is not up to us, and you cannot blame yourself for someone’s decision. You…[Read more]

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