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    finnian posted a new activity comment 3 days, 9 hours ago

    In reply to: Winnie posted an update I forgot how releasing cutting felt. Been like 2 years something since I last did it. Alcohol is good for the soul View

    there are better methods of releasing

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    finnian posted an update 3 days, 16 hours ago

    Haven’t made a status in a bit so I’ll give you a quick little update on Finn’s life:
    - I am officially 1 year on hormones, wowza crAZY. I remember ranting on this site about wanting to transition so badly, I remember starting and everything was moving so slowly — But here I am, 1 whole year! I’m proud of my growth.
    - I got a new job!!! It’s…[Read more]

    Mood : Distracted
    • Glad things are working out for you @peiyopei, you are such a fabulous person who deserves all the best in life, hope everything continues going well, stay positive, keep smiling because your future will be so bright and amazing, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone :) (hugs)

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    finnian joined the group Group logoI don’t know who I am anymore. 3 weeks ago

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    finnian posted a new activity comment 1 month ago

    In reply to: mariko posted an update I’m having so many bad thoughts right now is terrifying me. I feel a panick attack creeping on me and the tears don’t stop flowing. I wish I had the self esteem to put a stop at things that […] View

    I’ve honestly never related to anything more in my life. i’m so sorry you are feeling like this, it’s absolutely awful. i wish you nothing but the best the world has to offer. i hope you find true happiness and are able to keep a hold on it, you seem like a wonderful person, you deserve to have a life full of happiness.

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    finnian posted a new activity comment 1 month, 2 weeks ago

    In reply to: finnian posted an update my anxiety and depression is starting to get out of hand. I’m going to see my doctor in November. I think I’m going to talk to her about these issues I’m having in hopes that maybe she can […] View

    Thank you Mariko, and Oli. I’ll take that all into consideration. Do hope my doc will lead me in the right direction, though I know she will – she’s a very good doctor and person in general. Guess we’ll see when the appt. comes around.

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    finnian posted an update 1 month, 2 weeks ago

    my anxiety and depression is starting to get out of hand.
    I’m going to see my doctor in November. I think I’m going to talk to her about these issues I’m having in hopes that maybe she can prescribe me something, anything to make these feelings go away. My mother has always tried to force natural medicines and coping mechanisms, and I’m…[Read more]

    • @peiyopei is not just because she’s nice and cares, this type of medicine has HUGE side effects. I take medication for my anxiety, is called Rivotril. Yes, does the job, but I don’t wish the side effects on anyone. It triggers super bad thoughts, I’m talking about me breaking down, anger issues, suicidal thoughts.

      Depression medication can…[Read more]

    • I agree with @marikofujimoto, do talk to your doctor and see what happens @peiyopei, I’m sure you will find the right support and help for you, may it be medication, counselling or therapy, don’t let depression and anxiety get you down, remember to hold your head up high and always keep fighting because brighter days are ahead for you, stay…[Read more]

    • Thank you Mariko, and Oli. I’ll take that all into consideration. Do hope my doc will lead me in the right direction, though I know she will – she’s a very good doctor and person in general. Guess we’ll see when the appt. comes around.

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    finnian posted an update 2 months ago

    i miss the sun, the warmth, the light
    i miss the only happiness to shine through my dreary head.
    now i have no energy to get out of bed —
    he was the only person to make me feel,
    now i can’t even tell what’s real.

    i told you i wanted to marry you, we sat in my yard — the sky was an unsettling grey, the wind blew so harsh … i remember…[Read more]

    • Oli replied 2 months ago

      Please don’t give up on finding true love and happiness @peiyopei, someone special and amazing will come into your life Finnian, everyone deserves a partner who will stick by them, you do too, you will meet your soulmate, try to stay positive and keep going forward, you can do it, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are…[Read more]

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    finnian posted an update 4 months, 1 week ago

    be real with me people, i need a new job but i am scared to branch out into new fields. I’ve only ever worked retail but I’d like to be more open and try restaurant , be a waiter maybe? or i guess a host. idk, what about being a barista? i need options

    • Do explore as many options as you can @peiyopei, I’m sure you will find the right career and job that will make you happy and fulfilled, all your dreams will come true, go forward and never give up, you can do it, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone :) (hugs)

    • @peiyopei I say go for it. They usually train you until you get it done properly. Do as your heart desire and if it doesn’t work out, at least you can say you tried.

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    finnian posted an update 4 months, 1 week ago

    if i wasn’t so fucked up, i’d be unstoppable

    i’d get of this place so fast

    time is running out, i’m getting older… hmm

    • Things will be OK @peiyopei, look ahead towards your bright future and focus on all the amazing things that you will do, you are a wonderful person who will achieve all your dreams Finnian, believe in yourself and keep smiling, you can do it, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone :) (hugs)

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    finnian posted an update 4 months, 2 weeks ago

    fuck whoever stole my wallet. I had a lot of money in there and i guess it’s my fault for carrying that much but all the other stuff, all my knickknacks and stuff I had in there that I can never replace, I had my SSC fuuuuuck, my account number, my id, credit card…. Luckily though, I got my new SSC with my new name on it, I guess it gives me a…[Read more]

    • i needed the money bro, btw drinks are on me tonight lololol
      that sucks by the way finnian

    • Hope you manage to find your wallet or get your money back @peiyopei, try to stay positive and keep going, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone :) (hugs)

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    finnian posted an update 5 months, 4 weeks ago

    I am so close to getting my name legally changed, it’s exciting aaaa
    Now all that’s left is my gender marker and I’ll have all that shit out of way!!! No more stressing, no more dead naming, and no more misgendering when my ID is seen.
    woooo

    Mood : Accomplished
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    finnian posted an update 6 months, 1 week ago

    part of me wishes I was still with him, I miss him sometimes and I crave to be around his presence again, I could live with him and take my cat. I could have money again, I could be away from all this stress.
    the other part of me is okay with everything going on. when(if) I get older i’ll look back on this and hopefully it’ll make me a better…[Read more]

    • Try to get in contact with this person @peiyopei, hopefully you can still have a bond or relationship with them, you are a lovely person who deserves someone special in your life, remember so many people care about you, smile and never give up, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone :) (hugs)

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    finnian posted a new activity comment 6 months, 1 week ago

    In reply to: finnian posted an update i hope my family and i can find a house soon, motel living is draining the bank quick… View

    there is nothing to be positive to about

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    finnian posted an update 6 months, 1 week ago

    i hope my family and i can find a house soon, motel living is draining the bank quick…

    Mood : Anxious
    • Hope you and your family manage to find a good house to live in @peiyopei, try to stay positive and keep looking around as much as you can, hope everything works out, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone :) (hugs)

    • there is nothing to be positive to about

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    finnian posted an update 6 months, 3 weeks ago

    hey hey, good stuff
    got my package, life is sweet!
    Hung out with that girl I mentioned a couple days ago, took her pup for a long walk, got dinner and then watched a movie at my house, it was sweet and kinda reminded me of being a kid… I dunno, it was just very innocent and sweet. She makes me feel young, and giggly… feathery and light.
    it’s…[Read more]

    • That’s so sweet and cute @peiyopei, hope things continue going awesomely for both you and this girl, glad you got your package too, hope you have a great day, I’m always here if you need to chat or vent, feel free to inbox me anytime, stay strong, you are never alone :) (hugs)

    • @peiyopei that’s so freaking adorable! I think you will be fine and happy like you are now. Your life sounds like an amazing movie. Good luck with everything (:

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    finnian posted a new activity comment 6 months, 3 weeks ago

    In reply to: finnian posted an update on the downside I am being impatient because I want my package SO bad but I have yet to see the mailman…….. Where are you dude!? View

    I hope ;-; I’m getting desperate lolol

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    finnian posted an update 6 months, 3 weeks ago

    on the downside I am being impatient because I want my package SO bad but I have yet to see the mailman…….. Where are you dude!?

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    finnian posted an update 6 months, 3 weeks ago

    I have been talking to this girl for awhile, yesterday we saw a movie and in the middle of it she texted me (weird, I know but she is very shy and awkward haha) asking if she could hold my hand, it was pretty cute and she’s pretty cute too.

    Mood : Good
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    finnian posted a new activity comment 7 months, 1 week ago

    In reply to: finnian posted an update need to see a doctor, my mental health is getting…. weird View

    also I didn’t ask for your opinion on my PP.

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    finnian posted a new activity comment 7 months, 1 week ago

    In reply to: finnian posted an update need to see a doctor, my mental health is getting…. weird View

    No need to get sarcastic.

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