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    Oli posted an update 1 month, 1 week ago

    I’m still drowning in this dark abyss of sadness, loneliness and depression, it will never get better for me, just a life filled with pain and always being alone, no one cares about me, I just want to crawl into a ball and disappear from this horrible place, I don’t know how I manage to get out of bed each day or go to work, I’m a hideous, disgusting ogre that doesn’t deserve love, when I look in the mirror, I see an ugly person staring back at me, why am I here on this earth or part of the Blah community?, there’s just no point sometimes, my life is a wasted joke, I’m sorry everyone, all you are Oli is a recluse and outcast who will never fit in anywhere and stays in his bedroom all day, I’m beyond stupid and pathetic, I have no hopes, goals or dreams, just a downward spiral forever :(

    Mood : Depressed
    • first off, dont look down on your self @oliver okay.. secondly) we are all humans and we all have problems, but dont stop being the amazing person you are okay… i know you dont hear this enough from your friends but this is a two way street here, im here for ya too.. infact, if you need an ear im always open i may not reply right away or get this here in time but im here.. infact maybe i go too far with this one but everyone here cares about you and for you oli… you are the most active member here and you always keep everyone upbeat and positive -hugs- thank lord for that and fr you because without i probably wouldnt have made it through sme of the shit ive gone through and thats on some real personal level shit oli… you know some of my problems and well this is the first time i ever seen you had a real break down… we’re all here for you… i just hope you see this before something happens

    • @oliver I am so sorry you’ve been feeling this way, but I want you to know that out of everyone on here you are definitely one of the kindest sweetest people I know, and it’s nice to see your smile and know who’s talking to me. You seem ever giving and open with everyone and that doesn’t go unnoticed. Not having hopes and dreams doesn’t make you pathetic, it might come from depression and other things, feeling let down when you don’t get back what you put in, and giving up when things don’t work. There is hope for everyone, and there is hope for you.