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cynicalgravy
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Do you ever just…have fake thoughts and thoughts all the time, but it’s honestly so agonizing because I don’t know if I think it’s fake or not, or if I think it’s fake then that thought is fake too and honestly it’s confusing… View
- In reply to: cynicalgravy posted an update Do you ever just…have fake thoughts and thoughts all the time, but it’s honestly so agonizing because I don’t know if I think it’s fake or not, or if I think it’s fake then that […] View
- In reply to: cynicalgravy posted an update I’m overthinking. Once again, But I just feel so apathetic, even though I clearly am still resisting against the bad thoughts. View
- In reply to: cynicalgravy posted an update I’ve run out of emotions. Sometimes you need emotions to validate that your thoughts are true. But since I’ve used it all up, it just huts even more. View
- In reply to: cynicalgravy posted an update I feel so apathetic now, maybe because I felt so much that I’ve ran out. I don’t know why. I don’t always like being overemotional, but at least having emotions validates my thoughts. […] View
- In reply to: cynicalgravy posted an update Okay, my tiny problem is not tiny anymore. It’s growing. View
- In reply to: cynicalgravy posted an update I think I’ve finally gotten through the worst. I still have this teeny little problem bothering me, though. View
- In reply to: cynicalgravy posted an update I feel calm, once again. But it kind of terrifies me too, being calm — either I have accepted those bad thoughts I’m thinking as true (and I am absolutely not accepting them, this […] View
- In reply to: cynicalgravy posted an update I’m feeling more calm. Maybe because I’m sick and I took medicine. But I am still overthinking. View
- In reply to: cynicalgravy posted an update Whelp. My problem strikes back again, even worse. It really is part of a even larger problem though. It’s just that I’m too emotionally irrational and I always overthink. View
- In reply to: cynicalgravy posted an update At least I got one problem solved, or at least 60-80% of it solved. But I’m still overthinking. View
- In reply to: cynicalgravy posted an update Maybe it’s just the effect of the tea, but I feel stronger. I hope that my spirit lasts, and that it won’t come back again. View
- In reply to: cynicalgravy posted an update I was doing really well yesterday. Now it just comes back, again, possibly worse than ever. View
- In reply to: cynicalgravy posted an update I’m overthinking way too much. My brain often makes me think weird or horrible thoughts, as a defense mechanism. I admit, it does protect me well against all possibilities. But I […] View
- In reply to: cynicalgravy posted an update I feel guilt. A lot of guilt. Because so many people have much more terrible experiences than I ever had. But I don’t do anything, because I don’t know how to help. I’m afraid that I […] View
- In reply to: cynicalgravy posted an update I feel guilt. A lot of guilt. Because so many people have much more terrible experiences than I ever had. But I don’t do anything, because I don’t know how to help. I’m afraid that I […] View
- In reply to: cynicalgravy posted an update I like being a sensitive person. I like that part about me. But it means I worry so much about the little things and I always think too much that it gets painful. And I don’t like […] View
- In reply to: cynicalgravy posted an update I wonder if I’m so tired I can’t feel anything, or not feeling any emotion right now at all means I’m heartless. Really, I don’t know who I am anymore. It sucks that I don’t seem to […] View
- In reply to: cynicalgravy posted an update There are advantages and disadvantages to being highly sensitive. I am very empathetic, but I also react emotionally stronger than other people would. That means some things that do […] View
- In reply to: cynicalgravy posted an update I’m improving, but it feels as though it’s getting worse… View
- In reply to: cynicalgravy posted an update It never ends. It comes in cycles. Each worse and worse. Until finally something happens, and it’s the end of it. And end of everything for me. View
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