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    mariko posted an update 1 week ago

    Hate complaining, but I don’t know what else to do. I don’t know how to feel happy. Everything is so dark.
    Doesn’t help I live in this stupid little pathetic town, where everyone is cruel, judgmental, that are always gossiping, and the cherry on top of the cake is that I’m terrified and angry I’ll see my abusive ex and his family.
    I try to cling to good things, to set goals daily to keep me forward but I can’t.
    A family that doesn’t understand how I feel, a family that makes me pay for my sister stupidity and laziness.
    I was supposed to be living alone now and happy, but I’m really not.
    Doesn’t help I’m so emotionally broken and traumatized I can’t connect with people. I can’t shower, I can’t walk and I’m gaining weight insanly fast, I stopped going to classes because I’m so emotionally exahusted.
    I don’t know what else to do, and hate complaining because so many people have it worst, but I’m so fricking lost.
    So yeah needed to vent.

    Mood : Depressed
    • Oli replied 1 week ago

      I don’t want to see you feeling upset, down or sad @marikofujimoto, I want to see you positive and upbeat Mariko, I’ve been worried about you sweetie, you are such a beautiful, kind, compassionate and incredible angel who deserves all the happiness and joy that life has to offer, someone like you who is so special doesn’t deserve to be abused Mariko, don’t let your past get you down sweetie, what your horrible ex did to you was so wrong, you deserve to be treated with care, dignity and love Mariko, you have so much courage, bravery and hope inside and out hun, ignore the horrible words and cruel judgements of mean people sweetie, you are so much stronger than anyone who seeks to break you down, you will be OK Mariko, focus on getting yourself to a good place in life mentally, emotionally and physically, you are a fighter who deserves to be heard, appreciated, acknowledged and loved, hold your head up high and keep going forward Mariko, you can do it, believe in yourself and never give up, please know I’ll always be here for you because you have been such an inspiration and lovely friend to me on BT Mariko, I love and care about you Mariko, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone :) <3 (hugs)

    • Hi Mariko,
      I am sorry to hear that you’re going through such a rough time right now. Are you currently seeing anyone, a psychologist, about the issue? What kind of coping strategy are you utilizing presently? I am sorry that I am not more of a help right now. If you want to talk more in-depth about the situation, I am more than willing to listen and maybe we can generate some options together that might help you feel better. – Tomorrow

    • I am here for you! I am so sorry you are going through this ♥♥ I send you my love. You can get through this♥

    • @tomorrow I do have a therapist yes. I’ve been on therapy since January of this year.
      Is helpful but is only 1h a week so doesn’t even cover 5% of my problems.
      Is the only thing I can have right now, is the only free resources from the state.