I don’t want to such a beautiful, kind and sweet angel like you upset @marikofujimoto, I’m so sorry about your grandparents Mariko, do your best to remember all the happy moments you spent with them hun, your family should treat you with all the care and love in the world, you are a special human-being who deserves to be understood and not judged, be kind to yourself Mariko, you are courageous and brave member of Blah Mariko who gives me hope, smile and never give up, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone <3 (hugs)
I don’t mean to talk out of place, here, but it probably isn’t helpful for you to blame something you don’t believe in for the family issues. I think your family reveals more about human nature than deity.The biggest truth I had to learn for my own sanity was to accept people as they are (good, bad, ugly, evil). It meant I wasn’t responsible for them, I gave myself the freedom to move on from them, and there was no blame game going on. I am responsible for my own junk, and they are for theirs. My great fear was that I would become like the very people I railed against. I discovered only in letting them be who they are, that I was able to focus on my own character and future. That was when I got my freedom back.