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    mariko posted an update 3 weeks, 3 days ago

    This is random, but am I the only one that can’t stand Walking Dead? I never seen such bad writing. To not mention the ammount of cliche elements I’ve seen. I don’t get why the show is so famous.

    • FINALLY SOMEONE WHO UNDERSTANDS ME

    • I have never watched the show @marikofujimoto, so I can’t really offer an opinion, but I’m sure you will find other things to watch and enjoy Mariko, hope you are both doing well Mariko and @invincible, keep being beautiful angels inside and out Mariko and Cecelia, I’ll always here for both of you, inbox me anytime if you ever need to chat or…[Read more]

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    mariko posted a new activity comment 1 month ago

    In reply to: mariko posted an update Is so frustrating and disappointing to live under people’s words. They promise you the world, and you believe. In the end you get hurt, disappointed, you feel like a joke… In the end you […] View

    @oliver you’re 100% right

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    mariko posted an update 1 month ago

    Is so frustrating and disappointing to live under people’s words. They promise you the world, and you believe. In the end you get hurt, disappointed, you feel like a joke…
    In the end you really only have yourself. You can call it selfish but is the only way to live in this world.
    All I need is myself. I don’t need anyone. You can keep your…[Read more]

    • Oli replied 1 month ago

      Anyone who makes promises to you should always be there to help and support you no matter what @marikofujimoto, those who lie to you or betray you aren’t worth it hun, I want to see you being surrounded by compassion, love, empathy and kindness, please know so many people appreciate you Mariko, you truly deserve friendship and to have a strong…[Read more]

    • @oliver you’re 100% right

    • I completely understand and I live by this, too because it’s the only way to.

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    mariko posted an update 1 month ago

    The most frustrating thing in this world, is you thinking your loved ones also love you. Anyone is able to throw beautiful words at you, but action? Very few people can. Stop understanding their excuses.

    • Oli replied 1 month ago

      You are such a compassionate, kind and beautiful angel who deserves to feel cared for, appreciated, loved and acknowledged @marikofujimoto, your family should support you and always be there for you no matter what Mariko, please be kind to yourself and know so many people are here for you, I am and so is the BT community, those around you should…[Read more]

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    mariko posted a new activity comment 1 month ago

    In reply to: mariko posted an update Hate complaining, but I don’t know what else to do. I don’t know how to feel happy. Everything is so dark. Doesn’t help I live in this stupid little pathetic town, where everyone is cruel, […] View

    @tomorrow I do have a therapist yes. I’ve been on therapy since January of this year.
    Is helpful but is only 1h a week so doesn’t even cover 5% of my problems.
    Is the only thing I can have right now, is the only free resources from the state.

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    mariko posted an update 1 month ago

    To anyone that thinks depression and anxiety have an on/off switch, fuck you. Actually fuck you.
    Don’t talk to me, don’t even show up in front of me.
    As someone who struggles with this since very young, as someone who has been on meds and as someone who has a therapist, I’ll will say fuck you. Is not a matter of “oh you can be happy if you…[Read more]

    • Oli replied 1 month ago

      Focus on making yourself feel happier and positive emotionally and mentally @marikofujimoto, others really should give you advice that will truly helps you and makes you feel listened too, acknowledged and heard Mariko, anyone who judges you or is ignorant of mental health and the struggles you go through isn’t worth it sweetie, please don’t give…[Read more]

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    mariko posted a new activity comment 1 month, 1 week ago

    In reply to: Cecelia posted an update I can’t stand summertime. The heat makes me feel physically sick and very depressed. It’s affecting my friendships and I … I feel helpless! View

    @invincible although I hate summertime aswell, kinda tired from the weather where I live in, swear Portugal has turned into the UK lol. Has been raining non stop every single day (or every 2 days) since february. Is also really cold. If you want we can switch haha

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    mariko posted a new activity comment 1 month, 1 week ago

    In reply to: Tomorrow posted an update Can anyone private message me that has experience parenting? View

    @tomorrow I’m not a parent but I helped raising my younger sister, maybe I can help?

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    mariko posted an update 1 month, 1 week ago

    Hate complaining, but I don’t know what else to do. I don’t know how to feel happy. Everything is so dark.
    Doesn’t help I live in this stupid little pathetic town, where everyone is cruel, judgmental, that are always gossiping, and the cherry on top of the cake is that I’m terrified and angry I’ll see my abusive ex and his family.
    I try to…[Read more]

    Mood : Depressed
    • I don’t want to see you feeling upset, down or sad @marikofujimoto, I want to see you positive and upbeat Mariko, I’ve been worried about you sweetie, you are such a beautiful, kind, compassionate and incredible angel who deserves all the happiness and joy that life has to offer, someone like you who is so special doesn’t deserve to be abused…[Read more]

    • Hi Mariko,
      I am sorry to hear that you’re going through such a rough time right now. Are you currently seeing anyone, a psychologist, about the issue? What kind of coping strategy are you utilizing presently? I am sorry that I am not more of a help right now. If you want to talk more in-depth about the situation, I am more than willing to listen…[Read more]

    • I am here for you! I am so sorry you are going through this ♥♥ I send you my love. You can get through this♥

    • @tomorrow I do have a therapist yes. I’ve been on therapy since January of this year.
      Is helpful but is only 1h a week so doesn’t even cover 5% of my problems.
      Is the only thing I can have right now, is the only free resources from the state.

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    mariko posted an update 1 month, 4 weeks ago

    I want to die. But then i don’t. I do. I don’t. Back and forth.

    • Please don’t think like that @marikofujimoto, you are such a beautiful, special and lovely angel who deserves all the happiness in the world sweetie, don’t let life’s struggles get you down Mariko, death will not solve anything hun, I want to see you truly happy and living a life where you feel content, positive and fulfilled, so many fantastic…[Read more]

    • I feel… I am here for you 100% if you never need to rant, get advice or talk to someone ♥ serious

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    mariko posted an update 2 months, 1 week ago

    because I’m turning 23 today x)

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    mariko posted a new activity comment 2 months, 1 week ago

    In reply to: Dalia posted an update Uh, it’s been a long time. Hey folks, I’m back. for a bit at least View

    @illustrious-winter welcome back

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    mariko posted a new activity comment 2 months, 1 week ago

    In reply to: Cecelia posted an update I had a bad day. Apparently working hard, being friendly and really striving for success turns into people trying to bring you down, ridicule you and falsely accuse you. :) I’m sorry but […] View

    @invincible that’s what people always do, when they suck at life and can’t afford to work hard they tear people down. Jealousy is fricking poisenous.
    Don’t give up though!! That’s what they want! keep working and kick their ass with your success!

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    mariko posted a new activity comment 2 months, 1 week ago

    In reply to: ladybug48 posted an update I got out of the hospital Monday afternoon. Tuesday morning I was woken up by my mom because my step brother was missing. Turns out he had taken off between 10pm and midnight the night […] View

    @ladybug48/ damn that is indeed a hard situation!!
    Just do your best to support your mother and your siblings, trying to not take sides (which can be hard).
    I wish you all the best and also wish that your younger brother manages to get help and overcome those suicidal thoughts.

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    mariko posted an update 2 months, 1 week ago

    Where do you turn when you become desperate?…
    Don’t know if I should drink, if I should cry or scratch my skin to the point it relieves some pain away…

    • Please don’t let sadness, depression and pain get you down @marikofujimoto, I know how you feel sweetie, it may be hard to see through all the darkness, but you will make it through this and so many more brighter, happier and positive days are ahead for you Mariko, everything will be OK, you are a survivor who deserves all the best out of life,…[Read more]

    • I’m here if you need someone to talk to, Mariko. Please don’t hurt yourself. It can be difficult to be and remain optimistic during dark periods, but it is not impossible. You are an amazing and strong person, and you can get through this. I believe in you.

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    mariko posted an update 2 months, 2 weeks ago

    Second panic attack since therapy started and happened in the hospital last night.
    Was a very hard night.
    Lately has been so hard, so much on my shoulders.
    I’ve been working very hard to be positive but family is always upset, so much crap to study, then I have my birthday and my family won’t celebrate it neither do I have a present.
    I’m just…[Read more]

    • Please keep fighting and never give up @marikofujimoto, you will beat all your struggles and come out so much stronger sweetie, I want to see you truly smiling and making each day lovely Mariko, try to stay upbeat and positive Mariko, you can do it, do have a happy birthday and keep going Mariko, everything will be OK, I believe in you, please…[Read more]

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    mariko posted an update 2 months, 3 weeks ago

    Tired of feeding my own stupidity and dreams that won’t and shouldn’t become true.
    If I was harsher with people maybe I would get genuine respect and love back.

    Mood : Cold
    • Do follow your dreams and don’t let anything or anyone stand in your way @marikofujimoto, always be the kind, compassionate and beautiful angel that you are Mariko, I want to see you being treated with love, care, respect and dignity hun, you are such a special person who great things will happen too, believe in yourself and keep going forward…[Read more]

    • Always follow your dreams and never give up, you deserve love and respect for who you are, don’t change that. :) Celebrate your own uniqueness! Always

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    mariko posted a new activity comment 2 months, 4 weeks ago

    In reply to: SetiDrow posted an update hello hellloo View

    @setidrow hey there, hope everything is going great for you

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    mariko posted an update 2 months, 4 weeks ago

    Weeks and weeks of therapy, self evaluation, alot of hard work, and I still feel like shit. The only thing I’m good at is being a student. That’s it. I’m not creative, although I like writing, I’m not girly, hell I don’t even wear makeup, I’m shitty at the games I play and I’m the worst person ever to socialise with people.
    I can see myself…[Read more]

    Mood : Cold
    • Please don’t let sadness, pain and struggles get you down @marikofujimoto, you are such a beautiful, lovely and special angel who truly deserves all the happiness in the world sweetie, don’t let trauma define you Mariko, you are so much stronger inside and out hun, everything will be OK, you will win all your battles Mariko, so many brilliant…[Read more]

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    mariko posted a new activity comment 3 months ago

    In reply to: Nikki posted an update Im so lonely View

    @nikkineko I’m sorry to hear that. Feeling lonely is such a bad feeling.
    If you ever need company feel free to send me a message.

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