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    Cecelia posted an update 1 day, 3 hours ago

    All I feel is sorrow and pain and deceit and all they feel is nothing about it. They don’t care. I just have never and will never be acknowledged. No matter how nice you are, they just won’t care.

    • You are such a lovely, beautiful and incredible angel who deserves to be appreciated, acknowledged and accepted by your family and those around you @invincible, remember the BT community cares about you Cecelia and so do I, smile because you are perfect and fabulous inside and out, believe in yourself and never give up sweetie, you can do it,…[Read more]

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    mariko posted an update 2 days, 9 hours ago

    I’m just having a massive breakdown cause I never felt so alone in 22 years of my life. I can barely breathe right now, my head feels like is about to explode, I can’t stop crying, my chest hurts so badly and my anxiety is blowing up the roof. I think I’m not made for people. In fact, I’m just more and more sure about it. I don’t fit it. At…[Read more]

    • Please don’t let anxiety, depression and sadness get you down @marikofujimoto, I know how you feel sweetie, being an introvert and shy myself, it can be hard to talk with and socialise with people, you are a fighter Mariko who will overcome all her battles, try your best to go out into the world and not let the isolation break you, I care about…[Read more]

    • everything will be ok, @marikofujimoto… it may be a time of challenge but things will get better. This moment is the way it is because you have the power to change it whether you realize it or not. Try not to be so hard on yourself, you’ll make it through. There are people out there that realize and appreciate you just the way you are and know…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted an update 5 days, 5 hours ago

    Why is my anxiety still this bad? Seriously??
    Over habitual things that don’t even make me ME, my mind anxious, but of course anxiety still has to come.
    This is awful and I don’t understand it.

    • Don’t let anxiety get you down @invincible, try to relax and focus on all the things that put a smile on your face and make you feel good, try to do breathing exercises or yoga Cecelia, be upbeat and know you will be OK, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent Cecelia, stay strong, you are never alone :) (hugs)

    • @invincible I relate. Anxiety is a curse sometimes :c
      I hope you’re feeling a bit better now. If not feel free to PM me

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    mariko posted an update 5 days, 12 hours ago

    All I want is a conversation. A honest, open minded, long conversation. Aka 1 real friend.

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    Cecelia posted an update 1 week ago

    Disappointing what is happening to my friends, and former friends.

    • Oli replied 1 week ago

      You are such a compassionate, special and beautiful angel who deserves friends who will stick by her no matter what @invincible, I want to see you being loved and cared for by those around you Cecelia, please know the BT community will always be here for you and so will I, smile because you are fantastic and fabulous inside and out Cecelia, inbox…[Read more]

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    Oli posted an update 1 week, 1 day ago

    The past couple of days have been difficult for me, on a personal note, my sadness is still with me but I’m trying to stay positive and fight it as best I can, I recently lost a dear friend to suicide and I’m feeling guilty for not being able to prevent or stop it, I wish I could go back in time and stop my friend from harming themselves, I just…[Read more]

    Mood : Guilty
    • @oliver you couldn’t have done anything Oli. You helped that person as much as you could , that decision was made from that person, not your fault. And I’m sending you much love, so sorry for losing your friend. Wish I could give you a huge hug.
      Also thank you for the lovely message, I hope everyone keeps this message close to their minds and…[Read more]

    • @Oliver
      I’m sorry for your loss, Oli. I can’t imagine the pain you must be going through, and I know it’s easier said than done, but you can’t blame yourself. Knowing who you are, I’m sure you did all you could have to help and be there for them.
      My thoughts are with you, buddy. <3

    • I’m so sorry for your loss! ♥ You are such a kind soul.

    • I’m so sorry, no one should have to suffer through the loss of a suicide. Stay strong, okay? If there’s anything I know, it’s that you’re an amazing and supportive friend. Every time I get on BT you post a supportive and kind message. If you ever need anything, I’m always here. You can do anything.

    • I am sorry to hear that Oli, please do not feel guilty. I think you are a wonderful person who touches so many people with your empathy and compassion. Sometimes, we can help a person, but it is up to them to take the right steps forward. It is awful, but sometimes it is not up to us, and you cannot blame yourself for someone’s decision. You…[Read more]

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    mariko posted an update 1 week, 3 days ago

    Since I can remember I’ve always tried to help people cause I believe everyone needs a listener and also some advice (if they ask for it) . However, when I need someone that I can call friend, I find myself alone once again. 22 years and I never felt so out of this world. Maybe my life will really be just books and no human interaction. Where is…[Read more]

    • I don’t want to see you feeling alone @marikofujimoto, you are such a lovely, compassionate, kind and amazing soul Mariko who deserves to be surrounded by all the things that bring her hope, happiness and joy, please know I’ll always be here for you hun and so will many others, the BT community cares about you and so do I, your friendship and…[Read more]

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    mariko posted an update 1 week, 4 days ago

    If I wasn’t so depressed , anxious and busy with classes, I would attempt to get a job to get out of this house as fast as I can.
    I miss being myself, that girl that was super positive, creative, happy. Because I have a family that get angry at the minor thing I say, that don’t even try to understand specially when I’m nice, and to help…[Read more]

    • I don’t want to see you feeling sad, upset or down @marikofujimoto, I want to see you smiling and making each day as positive as you can sweetie, shine and know creativity and happiness will come into your life hun, your family should give you all the support and encouragement in the world Mariko, surround yourself with compassion, brightness and…[Read more]

    • @marikofujimoto you’re special, you’re worth respect, love and compassion, Any judgement on you is a judgement on themselves. Don’t take them seriously, you can enjoy life. They’re the one’s who have lost their way. Take each day easily, cherish every moment, this moment right now can be taken, especially by all the negative experiences that…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted an update 2 weeks, 3 days ago

    we’re living in a world where people would rather entirely interact with a screen with no observation of emotion- than enjoy the world, the real place with real things, and easily identifiable people and emotion.

    • Indeed @invincible, we should all try to interact, support and be there for each other, do spread your bright personality as you go out into the world making others feel wonderful, always be the special human-being that you are Cecelia, smile and never give up, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone :) (hugs)

    • ♥♥thanks so much Oli

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    Cecelia posted an update 2 weeks, 4 days ago

    Beyond angry and annoyed.

    • I don’t want to see you upset or down @invincible, what’s on your mind Cecelia, smile because you are a truly fabulous person who deserves to feel upbeat and positive, everything will be OK, try to focus on all the things that bring you hope and keep going forward, you can do it, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are…[Read more]

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    mariko posted an update 2 weeks, 4 days ago

    Aside of that hope everyone is having a good day/night

    • Hope you had a good day @marikofujimoto, smile and always be the incredible, kind and lovely angel that you are Mariko, remember you are beautiful and perfect sweetie, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone :) <3 (hugs)

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    mariko posted an update 2 weeks, 4 days ago

    Whateaver you do, never compare siblings. Is hurtfull.

    • Indeed @marikofujimoto, we all deserve to be treated equally with love, care and respect sweetie, I don’t want to see anyone being mean to you or comparing you to others, you are beautiful and special Mariko, what’s on your mind hun, I want to see you smiling and feeling fabulous, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted an update 2 weeks, 5 days ago

    overworking myself to mass exhaustion but OH WELL c’est la vie

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    Hope everyone is well here! Have a lovely week♥

    • Do relax and rest when you need too @invincible, don’t overwork yourself Cecelia, look after yourself and stay healthy emotionally, physically and mentally, remember you are a beautiful angel who deserves to feel amazing, smile and always be incredible, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent Cecelia, stay strong, you are never alone :) (hugs)

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    mariko posted an update 3 weeks, 1 day ago

    Another meltdown yesterday and a stop to the hospital. Too much on me lately.
    And to help today my sister is having the worst attitude ever. Why? Stuff was going so well…

    • I don’t want to see you feeling down or upset @marikofujimoto, you are such a beautiful, special and kind angel who deserves to have a smile on her face sweetie, hold your head up high Mariko and don’t let anything or anyone bring you down, your sister should treat you with love and respect, remember so many people on BT care about you and so do…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted an update 3 weeks, 3 days ago

    actually getting severe exhaustion from being piled on useless shit from my classes
    and getting no understanding from a so-called”friend” – might have to drop them because their behavior is no way acceptable right now.

    • Try to relax and take a break from your studies when you need time to yourself, surround yourself with people who will treat you with respect and kindness @invincible, I want to see you being loved and cared for Cecelia, smile because you are truly fabulous, hold your head up high and keep going forward with confidence, you can do it, inbox me…[Read more]

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    mariko posted an update 3 weeks, 5 days ago

    The day didn’t go bad, actually was pretty good. Let’s see how tomorrow will be. Goodnight everyone

    • It’s wonderful to see that you had a wonderful day @marikofujimoto, sleep well and get a good rest sweetie, I’m sure tomorrow will be fantastic Mariko, stay positive and keep going, you can do it, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone :) <3 (hugs)

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    mariko posted an update 3 weeks, 6 days ago

    First latin class tomorrow. Will be a bit later (at 10 am) , for some reason the teacher will be busy before, meaning only 1 hour of class. But still nervous af. Wish me luck…

    • You’ll do great in your Latin class @marikofujimoto, work as hard as you can, stay positive and know you will be successful sweetie, smile and keep going forward, you can do it, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone :) <3 (hugs)

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